An exception

dear god, for the past 365 days plus 21 years of my life,im not the gerl dat i used to be.been a very badbad person.regardless of wateva i idid in the past,i wud sit down and think bout the mistakes ive made.isit really worth it?the feeling of guilt and regret keep lingering in my mind. but then again,i realised i grew stronger after those mistakes.differentiate between right and wrong.i noe i cant blame myself wen emotions took control.things i didnt expect to happen just happened in a blink of an eye.i anticipate such things will happen again sooner or later. dear god, im trying my best to be a filial daughter.i noe i did lots of things dat i didnt meant to hurt my parents.all the shouting back,the laziness and the stubborness.wat am i thinking?i dont want my son or daughter to do the same to me. dear god, i noe my sisters and bro can be so annoying at times.their attitude towards me sumtimes,omg. but still,i wanna be the best sis to them,try not to be mean or selfish to them.we li

LOOK HERE ***HOLE. SERIOUSLY I HATE YOU. I FUCKIN HATE YOU TO THE CORE. YOU THINK URE SO GREAT? WATEVA MAJOR LOSER. SEEING UR FACE MAKES ME WANT TO PUKE, MOTHER FUCKA. GO TO HELL YOU. REGRET KNOWING U FOR THE PAST FEW YEARS. MENYESAL AKU.

sumtimes,i wud just sit down and think. but then again still cant believe that things happened the way it shudnt hav been. i mean.cmonla.haiz.i pitied them. how wud u feel if ure being treated that way. confirm sedih kan? well wateva it is im just letting it all out. me who i am deep down inside, silence.

been so sick these few days. sore throat and the running nose. woh.. haiz. maybe due to the weather. which is so unpredictable these few days. or isit him,not being there by my side. to feed all those medicines for me? serious ive eaten the medicines like countless time but its still the same. wateva it is hope this sickness will just go away. amin. mak aku sakit!

went to chinese garden. the first for us also. thanks to sha's idea dat is. hahah.. was damn hot i had to tie my hair. but too bad we didnt cover most of the ares due to the scorching sun. and i was so damn thisrty. two bottes of mineral water is so not the enough. hahha. rite after that went to park mall and singapore shopping centre. first impression. wow. but wen we entered. nah,another those type of mall for richies. yap. notin much too. BORING! okla.there's a video for u too see below. hear out wat boifie said. bising ah mulut u! haha.. peace. kiyte bbl mrepek.hahaha punyelah sakit ati nk upload video ni.geramm aku.

met after a terrible argument yest. he being the fire.haa. and me being the boiling kettle.. haa.bleh gituk eh. had lunch at al ameen. been ages since i last went there wit the family. abit of changes here and there. courts. kite mcm paham nak bli barang2 kat sane. den beauty world and bukit timah shopping centre. notin much. plain boredness. headed to causeway. wantedt to watch a movie but then again the queue was like super long. so tak jadi. anw. enjoyed the short afternoon outing wit him yaw had chicken noodles..super yummy. sempat petik.

oh my goshhh. i so love the new song from muse. muse i love u so much! undisclosed desires. omg the lyrics are like wow. AMAZING.

wah.. updat and update. nvr did i realise that its my 505th entry. wah. not bad. 4 years with 505 entries together. btw to rin im sori k we cudnt meet up. haiz so bored stay at home taking care of granny. btw pic kat atas aku takde keje posing atas katil shiok sndiri.hahahaa

haa..grandma's in the hse ppl! yap.my beloved granny who used to take care of me wen i was little. the one who used to send me to kindergaten.. no matter how i wud cried so loudly not wanting to go sch. stubborn as ever. time changed. eversinced she moved to my aunt hse many years ago,things started to change too. not used being ard as i grew slowly into my teenage years. so now its my turn to take care of her. while my aunt is away for her holidays at msia. and the best thing is that it reminds me doing my attchment at hospital and rehab. taking care of elderly.. lucky i already have the basics. ku dn nenek ku super best! nenek is cute! so she'll be sleeping in my room on my bed. as for me. on the floor.haiz okla. sacrifice.

thankssssss to my dear huney for giving this samsung touch screen SGH F480i phone to me...! ilove you so much! wanna know the reason why? because he's being the most nicest boifren on earth by sacrifing it for me.. wait..if u thing ive been bugging him to buy me a new phone.. u ar so wrong. he signed up a new line under M1 so that he cud call me everyday for 24 hrs..cool rite?? well the benifits is that if u signed up under m1 u cud call 3 m1 numbers for free. which includes me.... at first i was reluctant coz he already had his starhub line.but without hesistation,he said.. "dont wori syg..i akan bayar k..u ambik je hp ni..line nye i pakai k baby.." "abe ur starhub nye line camne?" "i bayar la syg"he said.. wah......... den he said take it as our ONE YEAR ANIVESSARY GIFT K BABY hes so sweet... but then again he continued.."tapi kite kena budget for our next outing and my pay." i said"OK HUNEY!" so we promised to put aside 60 bucks

yest was my dear boifie off day. finally after 4 long days of not meeting each other. first stop was suntec city coz there's a sale goin on.. selling electronics products. very the cheap. so my dad wanted me to go buy the standing fan for 10 bucks. but wen we got there, thousands of human already queued. im like wat the hell. ayaaaa. mcm ni nak suro aku beratur skali? takpelaaaa.. by the time we got in. the thing already sold out. so we decided to catch a movie at cathay cineplex. the day is still young.it was only 11 plus wen we reached there. decided to catch planet 51 at 1.20 slot. so again waste time by walking in circles at cathay. ahemm.. btw i so love sunday. coz the tix is buy one get free . cool or wat? so the bf only paid 10 bucks la. haaa.the benefits of being an m1 customer. haaa.okla enough of m1. its like im promoting here to attract new customer.lols. okok.. after the movie,of cousre felt so famished. decided to eat at ernie's.located at dhobby ghaut intchange i

asri and the chipmunks.

fiqah and the chipmunks.

yummy..had mee goreng. close up. looking at her. looking at him.

enjoyed the day yest wit cp mates. watched movie with dayang,sabrena,fidah.. bodyguards and the assasin. dayang suggested dat. okla just go ahead wit that show. dont even noe wat type of movie it is. so entered the cinema. skali bahase mandarin la die cakap. haha.. okla.chineses action movie,, suddenly i remembered back in secondary school. it was a history lesson bout democracy of china. dr sun yat sen. haaaa.the movie is somehow bout the past ya.sacrifice 8 lives for him. okla.tak paham?nvmd lets move on. so meet the rest of the geng..outside.. dina,zul,aisha,and azilah. too bad the rest didnt turn up. so headed to takashimaya dinner at seoul garden makdikaupunyebapak. punyelah mahal.it was so expensive.29.40. baik kan. thank god there's still some cash left inside my atm. so ya..waited for mr edmund our clinical posting lecturer to come. cooked,grilled,. savouring the taste of yummy ice cream. and we felt so bloated that we cant eat anymore. a gift for mr edmun before we went ba

finally after so long. ended up the convo yest wit boifie on the phone at almost 2 in the morning. shesssh...u jahat eh huney. anw will be out wit the cp mates later yaw. btw i watched this malay drama at sensasi yest, tell me wen was the the last time i actually sit my butt infront of the tv focussing on the storyline?haaaa..think it was jeritan sepi.haha..cik leh.ish2 anw its a very good drama.mustmust watch it. btw all the best to my sis wardah good luck on ur N lvl result.. weeehee

began the day,mitting him at 9 in the morning. he book out frm jurong island. and jp was the first stop for us. poor him doing his nite duty the previous nite,yet he sacrifice his time and put aside his tiredness to celebrate tis special day. we had kfc for breakfast. a very fufilling one of course. as i was about to eat i saw an envelope.. TO:MY LOVE nurfiqah zissakinah. and as i slowly opened the contents. omg i was so touched. haiz. the words.wow.. so after eating..we dont noe where to go. and mind you most of the shops still hevent open so we ended up walking back and fourth. anxiously waiting for that particular shop. finally its 11. yesaa..the first shop,,nah..the design was well..okla. the second shop wow.the design caught my eyes. "you pilih la k syg,ape u pilih i will just agree k."he said and wow.i was so fickled minded i dont know which one to choose. "ala u pon pilih la i tak tau mane satu nak bli"i said. so after much anticipating,we finally agreed on o

our couple ring. his hand and my hand @ spore river. he snap.

pasta mania.our favourite wat i gave him a scrap book with our pics in and some nice words. wat he gave me a n anivessary card.sweet my ring

on this day went to chevrons buy some army stuffs. bought an army polo t . for the both of us. too bad it was a bit small for me. damn it was raining cats and dogs. so spent most of the time caught inside shuttle bus.heavy jam. ate at banquet jp and imm @ jp hushh..

TO MY DEAREST HUNEY, WE'VE BEEN THROUGH ALOT TOGETHER AS A COUPLE. ALL THOSE ARGUMENTS, TEARS OF JOY. MOMENTS OF SADNESS. CRAZY AND WHACKY AS EVER.BUT ONE THING IS IMPORTANT. THE LOVE WE SHARED THROUGHOUT THIS WHOLE JOURNEY. HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVESARY SAYANGKUZ MUHAMMAD ASRI OTHMAN .! MAY WE LAST. 14/12/08-14/12/09. LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVEYOU! MUACKZZ.

TO MY DEAREST HUNEY, WE'VE BEEN THROUGH ALOT TOGETHER AS A COUPLE. ALL THOSE ARGUMENTS, TEARS OF JOY. MOMENTS OF SADNESS. CRAZY AND WHACKY AS EVER.BUT ONE THING IS IMPORTANT. THE LOVE WE SHARED THROUGHOUT THIS WHOLE JOURNEY. HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVESARY SAYANGKUZ MUHAMMAD ASRI OTHMAN .! MAY WE LAST. 14/12/08-14/12/09. LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVEYOU! MUACKZZ.

u noe,everytime i woke up dat lil bro had his eyes on the tv watching the ever irritating cartoons. its like he took control of the tv,and everytime i waanna change to the choice of channel i want to watch.he wud screamed so freaking loud dat the whole flat from lvl 1 to 12 cud be heard. so bored.best thing bout cartoon is i watched spongebob only.the rest are like wat thee.. and yeap its only me and him at home now.the rest of the family are all out. guess ive to entertain him la.. finished cleaning the living room.. next up is the kitchen, ayaaa..so lazy and tired. and better think of sumtin to cook later on or else the mother will nag. tak abes2 la.. sesungguhnye ku tesgtla tak kuase nak uat ni sume. btw.ape maksod msn aku tak leh log in. klakar kape.. tak btol la.

yahooooooooooooooooo.. school hols babey.. after 10 weeks of enduring. gona mish the cp mates and lecturer mr edmund.he's a very nice teacher. and ya looking forward on the 18th ya. and yeap 14/12/09.

i was tossing and turning on my bed.. staring at the wall..arms on my cheecks.. look up the ceiling. why? simply cause i was freaking worried dat he didnt reply my msges or called. i dialled him after 3 or 4 times like finally he picked up.with his sleepy voice he said he fell asleep. ayooo wat the tuttttt.uat org risau je. so its like im blogging now almost 3 in the morning.trying to type slowly and quiently like a mouse so that the mum and dad wont be awake and nagg for using the comp late at nite. haaaa..anw...frm here i can hear dad snoring.ish2 been so long since i blog at this hour. u ah nie,uat org tak leh tdo. i looked out the window just now and opposite my block i saw mcd delivery man. made me feel famished. ish2 mcm mane tak maken gemok.. asyek menyekik je aku. apa mau jadik..... btw attachments over babey. yesaaa..dont have to see all of their faces anymore. arrogant people.

loveyouyouyou.

so how's everything? pweety fine. boifie's doin his duty at jurong island. will only get to see him after the next 4 days. sians. so me and sabrena my cp mate had been talking so openly these few days. haaa.and working with her can chase away all the misery and sadness. especially after an argument with him. and haaa.she can be so crazy.whacky. oh my god. hahahahaha.. so the one year anivesary is coming and i got it all in my hands.. yessaaaa... like finally. my attachment at nuh is so over. its holiday time!! wepEEEEEeeeeeEEEeee!!

are just the three words to show that u care. for that someone, the feelings we share. never hurt me in any way. if u really want me to stay.. cos dear, no matter how much we fight. arguments tend to start. i love u forever, give me the trust.. and i bet u.. this feeling will last.

after awaiting for quite some time, finally the comp had been fixed,,thanks to second sis yaw. well.. its been quite some time since i last spent my midnite infront of the comp. lol. so how was my last weekend? BORING!! cos boifie said he wanted to spent some time wit the family.. yadiyadiyaa... so sad. so at home..throwing away some stuffs.. at 2 am in the morning?believe it? exhausting. but then again.. i got myself a new addition to my room... A NEW WARDROBE! not really new..my kak sdare gave it to us. i like la.. so..me and the sis spent some time cleaning the room..throwing some of the clothes that cant be worn anymore..and the i came across... 3 singlets...my boifie gave it to me of coz.. army man.. after debating wit sis..finally the new layout of my room.. mum find it awkward.just dont understand her sumtimes. and u noe wat.. my eyes are starting to shut now. sleepyy