An exception

dear god, for the past 365 days plus 21 years of my life,im not the gerl dat i used to be.been a very badbad person.regardless of wateva i idid in the past,i wud sit down and think bout the mistakes ive made.isit really worth it?the feeling of guilt and regret keep lingering in my mind. but then again,i realised i grew stronger after those mistakes.differentiate between right and wrong.i noe i cant blame myself wen emotions took control.things i didnt expect to happen just happened in a blink of an eye.i anticipate such things will happen again sooner or later. dear god, im trying my best to be a filial daughter.i noe i did lots of things dat i didnt meant to hurt my parents.all the shouting back,the laziness and the stubborness.wat am i thinking?i dont want my son or daughter to do the same to me. dear god, i noe my sisters and bro can be so annoying at times.their attitude towards me sumtimes,omg. but still,i wanna be the best sis to them,try not to be mean or selfish to them.we li...

LOOK HERE ***HOLE. SERIOUSLY I HATE YOU. I FUCKIN HATE YOU TO THE CORE. YOU THINK URE SO GREAT? WATEVA MAJOR LOSER. SEEING UR FACE MAKES ME WANT TO PUKE, MOTHER FUCKA. GO TO HELL YOU. REGRET KNOWING U FOR THE PAST FEW YEARS. MENYESAL AKU.

sumtimes,i wud just sit down and think. but then again still cant believe that things happened the way it shudnt hav been. i mean.cmonla.haiz.i pitied them. how wud u feel if ure being treated that way. confirm sedih kan? well wateva it is im just letting it all out. me who i am deep down inside, silence.

been so sick these few days. sore throat and the running nose. woh.. haiz. maybe due to the weather. which is so unpredictable these few days. or isit him,not being there by my side. to feed all those medicines for me? serious ive eaten the medicines like countless time but its still the same. wateva it is hope this sickness will just go away. amin. mak aku sakit!

went to chinese garden. the first for us also. thanks to sha's idea dat is. hahah.. was damn hot i had to tie my hair. but too bad we didnt cover most of the ares due to the scorching sun. and i was so damn thisrty. two bottes of mineral water is so not the enough. hahha. rite after that went to park mall and singapore shopping centre. first impression. wow. but wen we entered. nah,another those type of mall for richies. yap. notin much too. BORING! okla.there's a video for u too see below. hear out wat boifie said. bising ah mulut u! haha.. peace. kiyte bbl mrepek.hahaha punyelah sakit ati nk upload video ni.geramm aku.

met after a terrible argument yest. he being the fire.haa. and me being the boiling kettle.. haa.bleh gituk eh. had lunch at al ameen. been ages since i last went there wit the family. abit of changes here and there. courts. kite mcm paham nak bli barang2 kat sane. den beauty world and bukit timah shopping centre. notin much. plain boredness. headed to causeway. wantedt to watch a movie but then again the queue was like super long. so tak jadi. anw. enjoyed the short afternoon outing wit him yaw had chicken noodles..super yummy. sempat petik.

oh my goshhh. i so love the new song from muse. muse i love u so much! undisclosed desires. omg the lyrics are like wow. AMAZING.

wah.. updat and update. nvr did i realise that its my 505th entry. wah. not bad. 4 years with 505 entries together. btw to rin im sori k we cudnt meet up. haiz so bored stay at home taking care of granny. btw pic kat atas aku takde keje posing atas katil shiok sndiri.hahahaa

haa..grandma's in the hse ppl! yap.my beloved granny who used to take care of me wen i was little. the one who used to send me to kindergaten.. no matter how i wud cried so loudly not wanting to go sch. stubborn as ever. time changed. eversinced she moved to my aunt hse many years ago,things started to change too. not used being ard as i grew slowly into my teenage years. so now its my turn to take care of her. while my aunt is away for her holidays at msia. and the best thing is that it reminds me doing my attchment at hospital and rehab. taking care of elderly.. lucky i already have the basics. ku dn nenek ku super best! nenek is cute! so she'll be sleeping in my room on my bed. as for me. on the floor.haiz okla. sacrifice.

thankssssss to my dear huney for giving this samsung touch screen SGH F480i phone to me...! ilove you so much! wanna know the reason why? because he's being the most nicest boifren on earth by sacrifing it for me.. wait..if u thing ive been bugging him to buy me a new phone.. u ar so wrong. he signed up a new line under M1 so that he cud call me everyday for 24 hrs..cool rite?? well the benifits is that if u signed up under m1 u cud call 3 m1 numbers for free. which includes me.... at first i was reluctant coz he already had his starhub line.but without hesistation,he said.. "dont wori syg..i akan bayar k..u ambik je hp ni..line nye i pakai k baby.." "abe ur starhub nye line camne?" "i bayar la syg"he said.. wah......... den he said take it as our ONE YEAR ANIVESSARY GIFT K BABY hes so sweet... but then again he continued.."tapi kite kena budget for our next outing and my pay." i said"OK HUNEY!" so we promised to put aside 60 bucks...

yest was my dear boifie off day. finally after 4 long days of not meeting each other. first stop was suntec city coz there's a sale goin on.. selling electronics products. very the cheap. so my dad wanted me to go buy the standing fan for 10 bucks. but wen we got there, thousands of human already queued. im like wat the hell. ayaaaa. mcm ni nak suro aku beratur skali? takpelaaaa.. by the time we got in. the thing already sold out. so we decided to catch a movie at cathay cineplex. the day is still young.it was only 11 plus wen we reached there. decided to catch planet 51 at 1.20 slot. so again waste time by walking in circles at cathay. ahemm.. btw i so love sunday. coz the tix is buy one get free . cool or wat? so the bf only paid 10 bucks la. haaa.the benefits of being an m1 customer. haaa.okla enough of m1. its like im promoting here to attract new customer.lols. okok.. after the movie,of cousre felt so famished. decided to eat at ernie's.located at dhobby ghaut intchange i...

asri and the chipmunks.

fiqah and the chipmunks.

yummy..had mee goreng. close up. looking at her. looking at him.

enjoyed the day yest wit cp mates. watched movie with dayang,sabrena,fidah.. bodyguards and the assasin. dayang suggested dat. okla just go ahead wit that show. dont even noe wat type of movie it is. so entered the cinema. skali bahase mandarin la die cakap. haha.. okla.chineses action movie,, suddenly i remembered back in secondary school. it was a history lesson bout democracy of china. dr sun yat sen. haaaa.the movie is somehow bout the past ya.sacrifice 8 lives for him. okla.tak paham?nvmd lets move on. so meet the rest of the geng..outside.. dina,zul,aisha,and azilah. too bad the rest didnt turn up. so headed to takashimaya dinner at seoul garden makdikaupunyebapak. punyelah mahal.it was so expensive.29.40. baik kan. thank god there's still some cash left inside my atm. so ya..waited for mr edmund our clinical posting lecturer to come. cooked,grilled,. savouring the taste of yummy ice cream. and we felt so bloated that we cant eat anymore. a gift for mr edmun before we went ba...

finally after so long. ended up the convo yest wit boifie on the phone at almost 2 in the morning. shesssh...u jahat eh huney. anw will be out wit the cp mates later yaw. btw i watched this malay drama at sensasi yest, tell me wen was the the last time i actually sit my butt infront of the tv focussing on the storyline?haaaa..think it was jeritan sepi.haha..cik leh.ish2 anw its a very good drama.mustmust watch it. btw all the best to my sis wardah good luck on ur N lvl result.. weeehee

began the day,mitting him at 9 in the morning. he book out frm jurong island. and jp was the first stop for us. poor him doing his nite duty the previous nite,yet he sacrifice his time and put aside his tiredness to celebrate tis special day. we had kfc for breakfast. a very fufilling one of course. as i was about to eat i saw an envelope.. TO:MY LOVE nurfiqah zissakinah. and as i slowly opened the contents. omg i was so touched. haiz. the words.wow.. so after eating..we dont noe where to go. and mind you most of the shops still hevent open so we ended up walking back and fourth. anxiously waiting for that particular shop. finally its 11. yesaa..the first shop,,nah..the design was well..okla. the second shop wow.the design caught my eyes. "you pilih la k syg,ape u pilih i will just agree k."he said and wow.i was so fickled minded i dont know which one to choose. "ala u pon pilih la i tak tau mane satu nak bli"i said. so after much anticipating,we finally agreed on o...

our couple ring. his hand and my hand @ spore river. he snap.

pasta mania.our favourite wat i gave him a scrap book with our pics in and some nice words. wat he gave me a n anivessary card.sweet my ring

on this day went to chevrons buy some army stuffs. bought an army polo t . for the both of us. too bad it was a bit small for me. damn it was raining cats and dogs. so spent most of the time caught inside shuttle bus.heavy jam. ate at banquet jp and imm @ jp hushh..