An exception

Let's pretend for a second you don't know who I am And what I do, lets just put it do the side I can feel your heart beating,  I can hear you breathing try to see into your mind See into your soul No limits, to the levels me and you can go when it's me that is in control.. The way you tell me that you want it, not saying a thing The way you got me going ,got me out of my brain I see us going at it and out of them lanes I don't want your innocence, I don't want you to stutter I don't want a commitment and I don't want you to suffer I want you to wonder Pulsating,hyperventilating.. The force in your thoughts..

 Insomnia , u know when u can actually choose to rest when the kids are all soundly asleep but here I am pondering about irrelevant stuff.  Sometimes I feeeel so stupid or naive or I don’t know gullible?. U know u can really tell if someone actually appreciate the stuff u did. Apparently not I shud just keep silent. 

 Wow just wow… I managed to recover my blogger email and password and tadaaaa… my last entry ,vividly remember I drafted and publish it at work after attending to my last patient concurrently waiting for my shift to end.. ahh those days in raffles hosp.. of cos back then I was carefree; not much responsibility. Fast forward things change ..two’s a tango three’s a crowd they say.. alhamdulilah blessed with 2 boys and a girl.., can be overwhelming at times. Contented ,definitely.however; Still waiting for that moment for me to get back to the corporate world.  miss having adult conversations .  Sometimes I talk to the wall. . Pls don’t call me crazy.. And of cos the one ☝🏻  الله سبحانه وتعالى

the words of an unbroken heart explains it all.. no matter how much we wanted it,if its not meant to happen then it will never happen.. truth,it hurts but deep down the anxiety awaits. emotions.. mixed feeling,sparkling these senses beneath. the urge rumbling.. beyond the satisfaction. despair not.

The moonlight plays upon your skin A kiss that lingers takes me in I fall asleep inside of you There are no words There's only truth....

2018. 2 years since my last entry.. so many happened. married.. eh,i think i mention this on my previous post dated 2016.. pregnant..i didnt expect after 9 mnths i got all nauseated and missed my period. turns out im preggy.. gave birth to a baby boy. alhamdulilah. quit my job...had to cause my boy refused bottle fed and the husb was telling me to resign for the time being since it will  be much of a hassle,traveling frm north to west..north to east,vice versa..so that someone could look after my boy.. its 0114hrs as im typing this.. the mind keep thinking of this person. doubt this person ever thinks of me.. .do u think it will ever happen? my love for you, insatiable..

I dont know if u are reading this..if u do.. I just wana say.. i miss you!

Ouh wooooooohoo.. I thought i forgot my password but after several attempts i manage to log in to my dear blog,my heart and my soul.. Its been like what,3 years! Hahaha so where shalll i start? Omg so many stuffs happened i dont even know where to begin. So i got married.. Yadidyayadiya ..dating since dec 08 and married on dec 15. Its gonna be a year now. Workwise? Sadly i've quit ttsh.. due to this ass.. but after much thinking i realised damn...i kindda regret.. but its okla as long as they pay me higher here than shud be okay.. but the workwise is way longer and i tend to get more tired and lethargic compared to wen i was in ttsh. Friendwise? Managed to reconcile back with my best friend after we had some sort of misunderstanding.. So ya.. guess shit happens but its all up to individual wether we can fix it or just let it get worse. Got the keys to my abode! Super excited. So guess i'll stop here. Im actually blogging at work like what.. Having br...

helloo helooo just take a look at my previous entry,friggin 2012 eh! its been 1 year and a few mnths that i left this blog rusty and un-updated. hahahaha. so since my macbook its just beside me now so why not just log in to blogger(suprisingly i can still log in cos i thought ive forgotton the password lol) and just type a few sentence here. sooo whats up? sooo many things that has been going on. i dont even know where to start. 1 year plus is a very long time and ya not to mention life events,happy sad moments. i lost my grandfather a few mnths back due to pneumonia and it still upsets me cos he's a very very special person.that kindda affect me deep down badly. now my grandma is diagnosed with stage 4 lymphoma cancer.it was just 5 mnths ago when she stayed over at my house,she looks so hyper and cheerful i even recorded that precious moment on my phone,now everything has changed,she became weak, her heads not as high up just like before and she always has trouble getting u...

1 week still of nt meeting and can still pretend notin is wrong.how nice.

hellllloooooo there suprised to see me blog today? heh well i know that previous entry i did say that i will write again in a few weeks or months time but since im not that busy or i shud say that notin productive was done today.hehe so i was home the whole day just me and lil bro(dad and 3rd sis was ard only till afternoon) so yeah guess we were bored so we took some webcam pics as u can see from below.. so besides camwhoring i watched tv yeah its been so long since i last sat down in front of the tv.. watched some shows..one of them was men in black 2 and anak ku sayang.both equally good. and i finally cleaned my room,not that thoroughly just that it looks abit cleaner compared to other days where i must say that i dont even have time to sweep the floor..shhhh!!heeeh besides that saturday at home was ok.relax and chill only.. okla..i ran out of ideas on what to blog so i might as well stop here. adiosssss amigosssss:) ...

hi there blogspot. i know ive repeat it before and i shall repeat it again,im sorry for not updating you due to the busy schedule and also the days where i got so tired from work and on top of tat i was feeling under the weather for a few days. its sunday and im up too early to start the day. still feeling abit sleepy though so i took my macbook and yea here i am drafting what to type here. so...lets start..firstly our rship of 3 years plus now..well its hard for me to say.maybe both of are too comfortable with each other that i fet that we kindda take each other for granted.we hardly spend time together going out to the movies or such compared to last time due to each other commitment to work and also family.i do understand but still...hmm i shall not elaborate more futher on this. working wise..well i must say that things between me and all the incharge are on a smooth track.we joked at each other making fun of ourselves..there were still time where they were so strict that we...

hello again.its march and yes i will say it again,time really flies.life is too short dats why i decided to post sumtin here after so long cos i dont wanna live tis life full of regrets. so many things happened and im unsure where to start. should i say that one of the best friend decided not to be friends with me anymore.well she said in her twitter that "u used to be someone i used to know" obviously its reffering to me rite? haiz.seriously i dont even know how and why the argument started.ur msg stated that i treat you and the rest like dogs?that sentence really hurt me alot.before that i appologised to her saying that im sorry for whatever but her reply was so negative and really condemn me alot. :(( so i did not reply her back.i was too hurt,speechless disappointed. well i already did my part.since she already "wash her hands off me" i shall rest my case and i shall not say anymore.totally heartbreaking:( -i shall walk away frm all of u if u think im no good or...

heyyyyy its areadi december woww time sure flies and i realy was super busy as usual and i didnt even hav the time to blog as usual.so its 0733hrs and well i decide to on my lappie and well of cos write sumtin here ok the reason why im on my lappie is because i wanted to charge my phone so my mouse scrolled to goggle chrome and vwalla im here!hehee. for workwise,today marks the eight month of me in ttsh.i cant believe i survived!hahaha well i must say ive got some of the best colleagues to werk with.well my manager?okla always full of ups and downs.haha.every morning roll call there must be somethin dat she will keep on repeating..and yeah. anw yest was the best time ever spending the evening karaok-ing with my love for the first ever time.seriously he didnt like the idea of me suggesting to go cash studio in the first place but wen we're in the room wow he really sang his hearts out and so do i.hehehe totally enjoyed myself and for my bdae he suprised me tis clay replica of us an...

ok the last time i udate my blog was like ard a month ago so yes im updating it again today simply cos im bored and yeah i mite as well do something which i like which is blogging lohh. ya ya i noe ive not been saying much things compared to last time during those days where i was an avid blogger.every hour there sure will be something that i just feel like typing and let it all out here.miss those times actually. since twitter,facebook and tumblr took over the social site,i must admit that those simple things that happened i will usually update there so yeah some of u mite be thinking that eh maseh kental or wat pakai blogger..haaah who cares.ive owned this blog for almost 5 years now and for me to delete these memories its a big no no.and btw blogging help me so called improve my usage of vocabs cos my english is really deteriotaring. and yeah ive been busy werking so ya its almost impossible for me to on my laptop everyday cos i'll be tired to do dat and i will just hit the hay....

im so sorryyyyyyyy for abandoning my dear blogger. yeah been busy so busy that ive no time to update my daily life. so whatsapp? letme just summarise wat happened these past three months. 1)finally i have a job as a nurse in ttsh. 2)got my first ever pay and yes it feels good 3)finally i cut my hair!n all the split ends gone.well not exactly all.haaaaaah. and yes i spent almost 130 bucks.and half bf helped me pay. so nice of him. 4)well my job was basically to assist doctor,financial counseling,well dont really favour all that but do i have a choice? 5)i did dressing yesterday!finally one of my nursing skills which ive been eyeing to do, 6)ouh ya did i mention that bf bought me IPHONE,EVERLAST WATCH and all those small little gifts which i really appreciate so much:)) well i love to continue typing but im currently having a running nose which is so irritating.so i'll catch up u guys soon yaw. much love.

its the time of the month again where all girls will shed blood frm the lining of the uterus. hehe..so yeah i had a very very very massive headache just now and i really feel like taking a hammer and knock it on my head, well..i had a very gd afternoon nap just now and nw its much better. not to mention that it rained just now and it makes my sleep a nice and cool one. btw twitter's down..borinnggggg...

another boring tuesday.. so yeah im supposed to be reading on my nursing skills..guess im just too lazy.. wait i did read up on the blood pressure rates..ok so if the hr were to ask the range i will have a rough idea what to answer. anw..i cant wait to trim off this split ends..so that my hands wont be itchy splitting the split ends on my hair.. hahaha.. u noe im so thankful that bf bought me this laptop or else i wudnt noe what to do for these 3 months at home beside doing the housewerks..well the comp on my living room is lagging that bro of mine will always use it to play games. so yeah thank u so much hun. cant wait for tmr!!

hello blogspot.. i noe its been so long since i update here..i truly appologised. well i read some of my past entries 2007,2008,2009,2010.. wow i was an avid blogger.haha..every day there must be somethings that i wanna write about..and i will stay late in the wee hours just to blog. well its 2011.. time really flies ehyy.. and yeah i managed to complete my 2 year nursing course.. all the tears and almost give up.. well i remained strong. i wanna be someone who has a future,caring for others.. so ya..i will try my very best to continue updating my blogspot cause i tend to get so lazzzzyyy sometimes. so yeah..see u again.:)

i dont noe why its always like this. i always try to be the best for u.. everytime i said somethin during the argument,u kip saying i step over ur head,very rude and then u hung up the phone..whywhywhy? and wen i did that back to u,u got so worked up and started saying mean things to me..haiz.. im so hurt.. u keep saying u hurt.. how bout me? to me i didint even raise my voice.. haiz.. :(