An exception

i missed the old you. i missed the way u cheered me up wen down. but gues all of that just fly out the window. why cant they just listen to the tears of the disheartened heart..

It's tearin' up my heart when I'm with you But when we are apart, I feel it too And no matter what I do, I feel the pain With or without you Baby I don't understand Things are getting out of hand Trying too much, but baby we can't win Let it go If you dont want me boi, let me know I am down on my knees I can't take it anymore. Tearin' up my heart and soul We're apart I feel it too And no matter what I do, I feel the pain With or without you .

ok,ive read everything.takes courage to click on that link. i wanted to read till the end,but something stopped me. jealousy? haiz. i noe im just a nothing compared to his first love. no wonder things hasnt been pretty good for us these few days. and ya most of the post,in fact on each entry,there must be sumting written bout her. wat can i say? i taula i jahat tak macam die.asyek mara2 je.tapi pk alek ah mesti ade sebab knape i mara kan. :( all i can give you is the trust. so sad and sad and sad. :(

we are not wat we are last time. gotta move on.

SO SO SO SO SICK! SO SO SO SO LONELY! SO SO SO SO BORING! can anyone hear my screams? haiz. trying to be the best u wanted me to be.

u noe, i just realised.. good things will come to an end one day. haiz.. ppl change, either for the good or the worse. but most of the time, its not for the good of course. life is so unpredictable. funny mine is unexpectedly beyond belief wen im happy i shout, screamed fm the top of my lungs..laughed like a retarded person.tak ingat duniye la dkatekan. but wen im down,its like dark clouds,emerged frm nowhere, hiding the shadow of the sun that shined through me. i cried,like drops of rain pouring frm the sky. diappointment,disheartened..wat can i say?haiz. let silence take control me. :(

feels like half dead changing this blog. bagosla,org sakit,tdo,ko menghadap kat computer. haiz.. nvmd.someting new again. atleast this new skin has some colours. too bad there's no title. but its gd cause i dont hav to scratch my head thinking of one. anw,im so sick now,can i just just gulp down the whole bottle of medicine.?cos seriously. my cough is so bad until the whole lungs feel like coming out. not to mention this nose is like a running tap wen was the last time i felt like tis. mother! aku sakit.haiz.. all alone nw, suddenly the feeling of loneliness overcome me.

dear you, the past few months was a great time for us, the places we hav been.the foods our tongues got to savour. we had fun playing at the arcade again. not forgeting the movies, but the past few days u said somethings which made me feel so upset.and u kip saying i asyek mara2.haiz.other gals wud react the same way i do. u think i like to hav that feeling? i love u so much. but do i deserve all tis frm u? tired of shedding tears. :(

so happy frm the top of my lungs, im exempted from lifeskills.! yesaaaaaaaaaaa! sape mau layan nak peg class tu siak. hahahahaa. extreme boredness. somemore the teacher.. shessshh. dont noe wat to say also. pe lesson, we learnt how to play the american favourite game of baseball. pitching and the ballcatcher. best giler. nw i noe hw that game werks. after the practice, played one game. i was the ball catcher and i managed to catch the ball.hahahahah! they lost.ha! mr nazri said it was nice catch frm me. hee. abe kembang ek aku. tak tau malu.hahahaha anw. ive made up my mind. lets just see how it goes. suckaaaaa. seriously i so hate you now.

the crankines has reached up to the maximum level. ya man. somemore things hasnt been pretty good. dont make me do sumting that u wont like k. just dont. i love u so much, but plz,do think twice. so me and the best girlfren,met up like finally after so long of not seeing each other. u noe i reali miss some of my frens so much but i was simply busy wit sch and stuff. going home late almost everyday and yeap it sucks. thx she accompanyied me go shopping at john little.courtesy of the voucher boifie gave me. and ya having her around reali made my day. .anw,next up,is to meet rose darling.yay.patience is a virtue.oraits.love you all.

haa.seriously i thought i cudnt get into blogger. disable cookies all that shit. haaha dont even noe wat it means. well im supposed to be in sch, but thanks to that appointment ,i hav to miss class. and yest was a very bad day for me. i had this fucking damn cramp which god noes how painful it was. since in class sia. hurts like fucking big time, until i had to buy vicks frm the co-op. and ya. even wit boifie i started to throw tantrums. all fired up. serious. dont even noe why im like dat. must be the pre menstrual. hormones all rising up. wat i studied in bio of course. haiz. my cash are all burnt. soon after goin to my appt later on. haiz..money come again can?? kla.wanna go get ready bebs.

was supposed to go singapore art musuem wit fizah, but we ended up watching a movie instead. ohmygosh. so yucky and disgusting the way those vampires sucked blood. sheesh. sound effects pon take care ssia. sampai tekejot and leh telompat dari seat. very scary.

if ure wondering who's the gal beside me, she's my fren la.like duh. her name is syakila. or short syasha. haaa. been ages since we last met. even thought we're in the same sch. but its so hard to see her ard in campus. she's in beauty therapy btw. and wen we met that day. its like so many stories we wanted to share. funny how we used to hate each other coz of one guy. hahahaha.sampai gado kat lakeside sume. kekek la. suddenly i miss the frens dat i uset to go lepak-ing wit in the past wen i was in ite clementi. miss the moments la. we made so much noise under the void deck. until the police came,kena sceen.hahahahhaa esp the past where they sabo me by throwing powder at me during my 20th bdae. jahat la krg . 27/10/07

yap as promised earlier,i wud continue typing frm my previous entry. so ya..been very tired the past one week. i must say being a year 2 student nw,is quite a challenging for me. new subjects introduced such as geronology. the study of elderly.. and ya PCA,which stands for patient care A, dfferent types of disesase and illness we studied. not forgetting the continuation of BIOLOGY2. wahlau..that subject is like a total confusing. total facts bout human body. hormones..reproductive system,endocrine.. so many lahhh can burst sia my brain. but atleast i noe how our body fuctions nw after abit of understanding.. so ya. as usual the boifie wud picked me after sch. or atleast met up somewhere. heeeee. @ yew tee point.eating roti prata. and ya one of the days met up with cp mate sabrena. accompanied her jln2 at causeway. btw.. each time we met rite.he wud keep praising me sia. "u ni lawa lah baby". ayooo....!!! u ni rabon kape. and he wud say again."u pakai make up law

watsup homies. haaa.beeen so busy like a mad woman the past week. everyday reached home late at nite. insulin phase test over finally. hm. suddenly like lazy to continue typing. nvmd continue tmr la

wow.. time reali flies. its been close to 5 years of owning tis blog. and ya..watever unhappiness,excitement ,memories ,i share it here. its like my life now. haa. btw 2nd year.. damn..so stressful. theories and theories and practical. ahhhhrg

why do u always like to tis to me? why do u like to say things that hurt me so much. whu isit hard for u to just sit and think of the things i did for u.? whywhywhywhwywhwywhwywhwywhywhwywhwhy??? pernahkah kau rasa hatiku hampa?

i know sumtimes i can be big headed,self centred and ya get mad easily. but there must be a reason why i acted that way u noe rite,who likes to be in an argument. the day went out so well.. sentosa.. vivo, banquet.. but the last part spoilt everything. and wen he msged me that its over. i was dumbfounded. wat shud i say? shit.maybe he's right im not the type of gal for him. im sorry k.. but then he came back.. and say he's sorry too. he dont wanna lose me. anger took control of him. so he took back all his words, he needs me just like i need him. guess we nearly lost it. but not. like wat u said our love is strong yeah hun?:)

welcoming the brand new year 2010. well..im not that party type of person so i dont really go to those countdown held. hahaha. so that day spent quality time wit the family. had bfast at kfc.our favourite. and u noe,an incident happened . i was carrying the tray of 6 cup of tea frm the counter. and then it fell and my jeans got wet. and gosh,it was hot sia. lucky i didint really get my feet scalded. so after the yummy bfast, went to my aunt's hse at yew tee, temporarily hse for them to stay before they move back to their hse at wdlands. and i saw my abg sdare, abg ayim, its been so long since i last met him after he married to a msian gal. so ya talked for awhile, btw he was also a former shuqunite,same sec sch as me. and ya.. they lived on the 16th floor.. wow.. the view frm the top was spectacular,can even see our neighbour across the sea. it was much clearer wen we used the binoculars my uncle had. tall buildings ,istana,mosque at jb. amazing. one big family. 2nd and 4th sis 3r