i beLonG tO mE anD onLy me..

gone for 6 mnths,

2011-12-04T07:30:00.005+08:00

heyyyyy its areadi december woww time sure flies and i realy was super busy as usual and i didnt even hav the time to blog as usual.so its 0733hrs and well i decide to on my lappie and well of cos write sumtin here

ok the reason why im on my lappie is because i wanted to charge my phone so my mouse scrolled to goggle chrome and vwalla im here!hehee.

for workwise,today marks the eight month of me in ttsh.i cant believe i survived!hahaha well i must say ive got some of the best colleagues to werk with.well my manager?okla always full of ups and downs.haha.every morning roll call there must be somethin dat she will keep on repeating..and yeah.

anw yest was the best time ever spending the evening karaok-ing with my love for the first ever time.seriously he didnt like the idea of me suggesting to go cash studio in the first place but wen we're in the room wow he really sang his hearts out and so do i.hehehe totally enjoyed myself

and for my bdae he suprised me tis clay replica of us and i so love it to the max!! and wen i get to know that the price was over 200 dols i was so shocked i dont even noe wether to be mad at him or just love him more.well guess i love him more then.:)

so ya i guess i'll just stop here.sinus is kicking in!

pictures i shall upload in tumblr la k.

have a good morning y'all!

these are the reasons..

2011-06-25T22:36:00.004+08:00

ok the last time i udate my blog was like ard a month ago so yes im updating it again today simply cos im bored and yeah i mite as well do something which i like which is blogging lohh.

ya ya i noe ive not been saying much things compared to last time during those days where i was an avid blogger.every hour there sure will be something that i just feel like typing and let it all out here.miss those times actually.

since twitter,facebook and tumblr took over the social site,i must admit that those simple things that happened i will usually update there so yeah some of u mite be thinking that eh maseh kental or wat pakai blogger..haaah who cares.ive owned this blog for almost 5 years now and for me to delete these memories its a big no no.and btw blogging help me so called improve my usage of vocabs cos my english is really deteriotaring.

and yeah ive been busy werking so ya its almost impossible for me to on my laptop everyday cos i'll be tired to do dat and i will just hit the hay.

so yay basically dats the reason why i abandoned my blog.:) not on purpose though.

HALLO world!!

2011-05-07T19:51:00.002+08:00

im so sorryyyyyyyy for abandoning my dear blogger.

yeah been busy so busy that ive no time to update my daily life.

so whatsapp?

letme just summarise wat happened these past three months.

1)finally i have a job as a nurse in ttsh.

2)got my first ever pay and yes it feels good

3)finally i cut my hair!n all the split ends gone.well not exactly all.haaaaaah. and yes i spent almost 130 bucks.and half bf helped me pay. so nice of him.

4)well my job was basically to assist doctor,financial counseling,well dont really favour all that but do i have a choice?

5)i did dressing yesterday!finally one of my nursing skills which ive been eyeing to do,

6)ouh ya did i mention that bf bought me IPHONE,EVERLAST WATCH and all those small little gifts which i really appreciate so much:))

well i love to continue typing but im currently having a running nose which is so irritating.so i'll catch up u guys soon yaw.

much love.

period.

2011-02-26T21:34:00.002+08:00

its the time of the month again where all girls will shed blood frm the lining of the uterus.

hehe..so yeah i had a very very very massive headache just now and i really feel like taking a hammer and knock it on my head,

well..i had a very gd afternoon nap just now and nw its much better.

not to mention that it rained just now and it makes my sleep a nice and cool one.

btw twitter's down..borinnggggg...

update!

2011-02-22T15:24:00.002+08:00

another boring tuesday..

so yeah im supposed to be reading on my nursing skills..guess im just too lazy..

wait i did read up on the blood pressure rates..ok so if the hr were to ask the range i will have a rough idea what to answer.

anw..i cant wait to trim off this split ends..so that my hands wont be itchy splitting the split ends on my hair..

hahaha..

u noe im so thankful that bf bought me this laptop or else i wudnt noe what to do for these 3 months at home beside doing the housewerks..well the comp on my living room is lagging that bro of mine will always use it to play games.

so yeah thank u so much hun.

cant wait for tmr!!

longgg hiatusss

2011-02-21T17:35:00.002+08:00

hello blogspot..

i noe its been so long since i update here..i truly appologised.

well i read some of my past entries 2007,2008,2009,2010..

wow i was an avid blogger.haha..every day there must be somethings that i wanna write about..and i will stay late in the wee hours just to blog.

well its 2011..

time really flies ehyy..

and yeah i managed to complete my 2 year nursing course..

all the tears and almost give up..

well i remained strong.

i wanna be someone who has a future,caring for others..

so ya..i will try my very best to continue updating my blogspot cause i tend to get so lazzzzyyy sometimes.

so yeah..see u again.:)

2011-01-06T22:13:00.002+08:00

like my fren once said.."kau nanges mcmane pon..sampai kuar air mate darah pon,tapi die tak ambek peduli..he might be laughiing as ure crying now.."

yes..indeed my fren was right in fact..

hell he dont give a dam wether i cry or not..and that really upsets me.

isint dat ego?

yest i had a very fucking headache and i really do miss him so badly that i even wanted to mit him up..well due to his work,he wasnt able to meet me..which i understand that..and he told me that tmr he will meet me..

so tmr(today) comes,well he went home and rest despite the fact he promised that he wanted to see me..

so he spent the whole day sleeping,and wen he woke up..he dont even giv a damn bout me.wether im okay or not..am i still upset or wat..here i am crying in tears..even wen i kol him just now,i cried..he still wont bother.he can still laughed watching movie..isint that so ego

i jut realise that wenever i need him and want to see him,he always gave reasons..but wenever he wants to see me..im willing to mit even though i have to wake up early in the morning..

tell me is this fair?

im so hurt with the way u treat me nowadays.

its getting bad to worse.

another example is 2 days ago..u wanted to go jb badly..i keep telling u that its late and im scared that u will be late for work..but u gave me this defensive look which clearly shows that u want it to have ur own way.having me to listen to u all the time wen u dont even wanna listen to me..

u said u wud change..but ur words mean noting if u dont mean it at all..

sayang..i love u so much but with this type of attitude,the way u treat me..
im taking back my love.

sick and tired

2011-01-01T23:55:00.002+08:00

as im typing this post,tears slowly drop frm my eyes..i dono..i feel like giving up this love,im sick and tired of crying day by day wihout u even showing any care.

i keep thinking bout all the things u did that were so mean to me..like just leaving me and hafizah all alone in the custom. and some other stuffs that i shall not mention here.

everytime i tried to say somethings,u wud say i argue..and u say all those bad things bout me.

i had enough already.

fuck ur ego.

2010-12-30T01:53:00.002+08:00

i am so upset now..the feeling of sorrowness still lingers around me..i still cant belive he just left us at the custom..without saying goodbye.and he msged me all the mean stuffs again..

on top of that he keep saying that im being ego..

ya allah..aku da tk boleh tahan lagi dengan ni semue..

i cant help but to cry and cry..im sick and tired of all this..

just leave me already.

2010-12-22T20:17:00.001+08:00

FUCK ALL YOU SPAMMERS.DONT U DARE SPAM MY TAGBOARD..NOTIN BETTER TO DO ISIT?GO GET A LIFE DAMMIT.

2010-12-22T17:02:00.002+08:00

i dont noe why its always like this.

i always try to be the best for u..

everytime i said somethin during the argument,u kip saying i step over ur head,very rude and then u hung up the phone..whywhywhy?

and wen i did that back to u,u got so worked up and started saying mean things to me..haiz..

im so hurt..

u keep saying u hurt..

how bout me?

to me i didint even raise my voice..

haiz..

the lappie.

2010-11-20T11:44:00.002+08:00

heyy peeps..wat maks u think that im not gonna blog here anymore?hhaa..just cause i hav tumblr now doesnt mean im gonna dump my blogspot ok..cos tis is where i started eversince i was in sec 5 till now..history will nvr be erased..

so ya..im so mad cos boifie bought me new labtop..ok..well its expensive and he insisted on buying me new one..haaaiizzz...u eh..im speechless and i dono wat to say..

well..one thing i can say is i love u.:)

2010-11-14T10:50:00.002+08:00

heyaaa peeepssss...im temporarily moving to www. fiqah-ism.tumblr.com. :)

third week.

2010-10-28T17:49:00.004+08:00

fuck this few days was a very busy one for me.
i hate it to the fucking core.

and ya i had to replace on a bloody damn saturday due to the mc i took due to the fever and sorethroat.
thank to bf for accompanying me to the clinic.

and ya i was scolded by the sister in the ward.

like wat the hell man.

overall the day doesnt get any better.

faster attchment finish.
im tired already.

lil bro made me laughed.

2010-10-16T23:40:00.003+08:00

hahaha.it was cute rather..
"'kak long nak main ngan abdul matin?"
so i went to the living room and i saw the picture above..
matin drew this so called snake and ladder game on a piece of blank paper..

hahahahaha..and he used erasers...

kekek la adk ku laki ni sorang.

he picked me up frm werk.:)

2010-10-16T00:18:00.003+08:00

finally one week of attachment is over.

haaa.9 more weeeks to suffer..

anw to think bout it again,my new lecturer was not bad though..

she helped me alot when doing ECG on patient which is a good thing laa.. so yaa..

back to my title above,as usual we;ve been having a couple of arguments the past few days..

like f..

so he managed to made ammendments like wat he said to me on the phone just now..

met up after werk and had late lunch at al-ameen makan house and for the first time i had naan.

sedap giler seh sampai tak leh masok lagi..hahhaa.

the stretch of makan places along clementi road there was not bad,not forgetting the nasi lemak we had quite a number of times..yummmyyyyy..

we're on the phone just now and he said lots of the sweet of all the sweetest things on earth and its making me hard to believe..haaa..so yar...

md asri,kite sayang awak tau,takmu uat kite nanges lagi k..

2nd day

2010-10-12T22:58:00.002+08:00

attachment for me tis time round was not so good one for me..

new group with new attitudes,not forgetting the lecturer.

sux..
after a long break,suddenly for the next ten weeks,in the ward standing and pacing ard most of the time.

damn my leg hurts!

lazzyyyy la..haiz.

ok im supposed to find out about bandages but guess im just too worn out.

wedding saturday

2010-10-10T00:19:00.002+08:00

i wanna say thank u to boifie for spending his sleep day with me and accompany me to my classmate's wedding

so ya head to yishun for mariam's wedding.
okla a simple one i must say..

so rite after that we head to woodlands since we had no other place to go beside northpoint which is a bit bored for me.

so ya,,ape lag makan ah..
hahaha.
asyek makan aje aku ni..

fish soup.

muke pakcik2.hahahahahahaha jkjk.

so ya gonna start my attachment tmr..

malaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaasssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
ok da.tak tau nk ckp ape lagi.

umpama mimpi dalam mimpi.

2010-10-06T21:52:00.002+08:00

tatkala sang suria menyinari jendela ku..

sinaran cahaya pagi itu cukup indah sekali,

perasaan ceria dan gembira menyelubungi jauh di lubuk hatiku..

tiba-tiba ku tersentak,ku hanya mempunyai 4 hari untuk bersuka ria dan merehatkan tubuh ku ini.

aduh sungguh malas sekali untuk ku berkerja sambil belajar selama 3 bulan yang akan datang.

tapi tidak mengapa,

selepas pengajian ku ini ku akan menjadi seorang jururawat yang ku impikan sejak kecil lagi.

jika keputusan ku memuaskan,ku ingin melanjutkan pelajaran ke tahap diploma.

mudahann cita-citaku akan tercapai.

amcm ?

hahaa.been ages since i wrote in bahasa melayu.

saye rindu awk:(

2010-10-04T14:29:00.003+08:00

yeah.seriously i fucking miss my bf so much.

its been 120 hrs which equals to 5 damn days ive not yet seen him.

im sorry if ive been a fucked up gf the past FEW days

its just i miss u. BADLY.

past 3 weeks

2010-10-03T21:53:00.003+08:00

attachment gonna start soon and im so not looking forward..

ive been slacking at home most of the time doing noting..

sleep on my bed..staring at the walls..

there was this once im so damn bored i took a pen and scribble on my hand.

haaa.nila dnamekan takde keje..

yeah i remembered back in sec school i always drew on my hand..

ouh not the one like above just a simple heart shape or u noe those smaller ones.

maybe thats the reason why my o levels result sucked big time.

nvr pay attention in class.

haha.

i noe ive been abandoning my blog fo the past weeks..

its just that im more active on twitter now.

but now worries i will continue update weneva i have the mood..

ive not been meeting my bf for some time now.

i think he dont miss that much just like i do:(

its 2 in the morning

2010-09-23T02:11:00.003+08:00

wahh,wen was the last time i stayed up tis late..

haa..

ok i was downloading some songs..so yeah..

im done nw.

haa.noting to do..

and pS..MY TAGBOARD FEELS SO DEAD.

its only bf who's tagging..

which includes me..

if this goes on i mite as well hav a combination of blogger account just for the both of us only to communicate.

MENDAKK!

people,where ar u?

anyone??

and im still unwell

2010-09-21T15:05:00.000+08:00

ive been goin in and out the toilet again.
not being disgusting or wat but i keep passing loose stools..
and the tummy hurts..

i really hate the feeling of this nausea,

ARGGGHHHHHH.

the ride.,

2010-09-21T14:59:00.000+08:00

remember those days whereby me and the bf wud sit outside vivo facing the view of sentosa and den our heads turned to the cable car hanging up above the sea..

"u nanti satu hari i akan bawa u naik cable car k"bf said to me during those days.

and yess after months of anticipating,we finally sit our butts on the jewel box.
of course thank u so much huney.
its a very wonderful sight and the view from above the cabin was marvellous.

i love u la hun..
sunday 190810 was the date where we went to the harbour front towers to queue for the ticket..
actually i wasnt really expecting that and its not that i force him or wat. gf giler tu maknye nyee

hahaa..
and bf said he was serious and its sumting different for us anw..
so ya..took the ride all the way to sentosa..
not forgetting the weather was scorching hot.

the spectacular view

that was the ticket

the jewel box...

so upon reaching sentosa,decided to hang out at coffee bean,
bf brought along his labtop so ape lagi,godeh2 la...
heee.

so head back to vivo and we sat at mcd contine godeh2 bf's new labtop.
ape lag..main game laa..hahaa..
best seh.

so ya..enjoyed the whole time with you syg.

2010-09-19T08:24:00.001+08:00

anw photos uploded,theres quite alot actually,but i was too tired to publish here,so..go see la at facebook.heee

bile nak kahwin kak?

2010-09-19T08:17:00.002+08:00

so my aunt came over for raya yest,

and i cooked tis hokkien mee for them..

i mean its like the simple dish for me to cook of course,

and ya,

so i asked them la,hw was the mee?

and she said,ok pass da bleh kawen..

hhahahahahahahah!.

blushing la aku ni..

den i showed the couple ring to my kak sdare,

ceh...not bad..

can say "he dotes on you".."so da two years ah nie"

cheeeehhhh..

bile nak kawin?

next year kot..hhhaaa

yelah tuuu.

insyallah..kalau ade jodoh..

down with diarrhea

2010-09-19T08:08:00.002+08:00

yeap ive been vomitting the past few days and my tummy really felt like its rumbling inside.

feeling sick as ever and i keep wanting to go toilet.

sharks..i hate it wen tis type of things happened,

serious i threw up at almost everything,the food i ate the water i drank,that bad.

so decided to go polyclinic yest and i was so confident thinking.

ala hari ni confirm sikit org punye..who wants to go poly on a freaking saturday anw..

skali da sampai..ambek kau..

punyelah ramai manusia..

the ones with swollen eyes,bandaged ankle,elderly wit wheelchair along with the NG tube inserted,poor thing.and not forgetting the classic..the ones with their mask on..

wah..so many people sick ah?

haiyooooo..

no choice just had to wait for my turn lah..

i reached at 10.30 and the whole thing ends at 12.15.

haa.typical ah beb.

so doc gave me this salt thingy which rehydrates my body fluids and electrolytes..

ceh bbl mcm doctor la plak.

haha..

alhamdulilah im much better now.

21st

2010-09-15T15:00:00.001+08:00

yest marks our 21st monthsary,
nurfiqah zissakinah and muhammad asri

heeee..
and
not forgetting the 6 years so called annivesary with my blog.
since 14 september 2006 till now..

frm sec 5, sitting for prelims and O levels..
ite clementi nitec in retail den working in watsons for ayear and few months plus..

now nitec in nursing..

fuhhhhyyoohh
dat long..
well..history wiil always remain.

so rite after my last paper yest,meet up with bf,
had arnolds chicken at payar lebar.
superb.
bloated.

ouh ya before that bf bought me a gift,
ingatkan i pod atau i touch ke..
skali...

perfume by davidoff,ECHO.

hahaa..thanks anw huney,
very sweet aroma..cehhss,haaa

do after the met up,2nd sis msg,go accompany her to jp..

so pegla temaknkn die kejap..

takde haluan.go in shop,browse shop,and leave the shop.
haaa.

look alike?

had supper at delifrance by that time i cudnt squeeze in anymore.
had this potato dono watla..
so in the end sis finished all of it..

so ya happy monthsary again my huney love.

exams bluee.

2010-09-15T14:27:00.001+08:00

the past few days before exams was the most hectic time i ever had,not forgetting preparation of hari raya..
so i reali had no time to even on the comp.

well..raya was finee..
will uploads the pics soon..
cos there's like more than 20 pics needed to upload.
so gonaa take some time yar.

so yesssaa exams are finally over and mind you last min studying is not a very good idea and i totally regret cos i didnt start my revision early..toobad for me..

and yes as u can see below,btw thats not me,its my second sis menyibok je posing..
my notes all over my bed,memorising and writing all the notes..

can say i even slept with the notes.haaa.serious..

but alhamdulilah,everything went well after the exams..so yaynesss..
just for a few MCQ qns main hetam aje..
and ya..

3 more months and im so gonna graduate..hw time realli flies..

the watch

2010-09-05T21:21:00.000+08:00

i wanna say a big thank you to dearest bf!!
mind you its 91 bucks.the most expesive of all the watch i ever had.
and i promise that i will take care gd care for it k u..

lovee u hun...

sch's life.

2010-09-03T15:55:00.005+08:00

im all alone in the school library,
i dont even now why im here in the first place.
since ive got noting to do,i mite as well update sumtin here.

haiz.
haiz.
haiz.

ok stop it,
dont even wanna think bout it again cos everytime i think bout it my mind go crazy and the brain can blast into tiny little particles.

haa.

so how was my presentation?
haaaaaaahaa.

okla..not to boast but my skills of presentin in front of the class improves,
no more stuttering,no more catching my breath,no more shivvering.
way to go.

well tis is my personal opinion la.

exams next week and i still havent revise for it yet.
damnnn.
gonna finish up my past year exams paper tis weekend.
and also to clean up my messssyness room.

ok i dono wat else to type here.
ZzzZzzzz

wat goes ard comes ard.

2010-09-03T15:55:00.001+08:00

treat me right

2010-09-02T21:40:00.005+08:00

im looking for a lover and not a friend,

somebody who can be there wen i need someone to talk to,

im looking for someone who wont pretend,

someone who understands how i feel,

who can keep it real and who noes the way,the way i like to hav it my way,

and im looking for someone who takes me there,wants to share.show that he cares..

isit you?

could u be the one i need?

im looking for someone to share my pain,

someone who i can run to,who will stay with me wen it rains,

someone i can cry through the nite..

who i can trust whose heart is rite..

someone who wont take for granted..

how much i care,and appreciates that im there..

someone who listens and wont just hung up the phone..

leaving me all alone..tell me is this fair?

treat me right

2010-09-02T21:40:00.004+08:00

im looking for a lover and not a friend,

somebody who can be there wen i need someone to talk to,

im looking for someone who wont pretend,

someone who understands how i feel,

who can keep it real and who noes the way,the way i like to hav it my way,

and im looking for someone who takes me there,wants to share.show that he cares..

isit you?

could u be the one i need?

im looking for someone to share my pain,

someone who i can run to,who will stay with me wen it rains,

someone i can cry through the nite..

who i can trust whose heart is rite..

someone who wont take for granted..

how much i care,and appreciates that im there..

someone who listens and wont just hung up the phone..

leaving me all alone..tell me is this fair?

treat me right

2010-09-02T21:40:00.003+08:00

im looking for a lover and not a friend,

somebody who can be there wen i need someone to talk to,

im looking for someone who wont pretend,

someone who understands how i feel,

who can keep it real and who noes the way,the way i like to hav it my way,

and im looking for someone who takes me there,wants to share.show that he cares..

isit you?

could u be the one i need?

im looking for someone to share my pain,

someone who i can run to,who will stay with me wen it rains,

someone i can cry through the nite..

who i can trust whose heart is rite..

someone who wont take for granted..

how much i care,and appreciates that im there..

someone who listens and wont just hung up the phone..

leaving me all alone..tell me is this fair?

treat me right

2010-09-02T21:40:00.002+08:00

im looking for a lover and not a friend,

somebody who can be there wen i need someone to talk to,

im looking for someone who wont pretend,

someone who understands how i feel,

who can keep it real and who noes the way,the way i like to hav it my way,

and im looking for someone who takes me there,wants to share.show that he cares..

isit you?

could u be the one i need?

im looking for someone to share my pain,

someone who i can run to,who will stay with me wen it rains,

someone i can cry through the nite..

who i can trust whose heart is rite..

someone who wont take for granted..

how much i care,and appreciates that im there..

someone who listens and wont just hung up the phone..

pretending that im fine.wen im actually not.

boredness

2010-08-29T13:36:00.001+08:00

i wanted to actualli proceed with my afternoon nap,

but nah..

haha.

if i sleep now,i wont be able to sleep at nite.

so another sunday.

boring ya..

stuck at home doin notin..

haizz..

tell me what to do now..

school reopens

2010-08-29T10:29:00.004+08:00

im so not looking forward going back to sch tmr.
firstly,
ive not been sleeping very well..
secondly
ive been waking up early and ya do the hsewerks.
thirdly
i got one more assignment for my patient care,but heck care im not gonna do it.maybe..
4thly.
i have to wake up 5 in the morning to sahur and unable to sleep back and head to sch.
5thly.
hmm..
okla dats all..

and ya i overslept for sahur again.
sharskie!

the return of picassa.

2010-08-27T22:30:00.001+08:00

yaynessssssssssssssssssss!
picassa's back on my desktop

so i wont hav any more problems uploading more pics here at blogger.

ps,i love picassa to the max.!

secret receipe and tong seng.

2010-08-27T22:28:00.004+08:00

wednesday.

i went to boonlay shopping centre to find a comp shop accompanied by nas.
the final beh group project to burn into cd format.
so yaynesss its all done nw.

all i had to do was to return back dayang's thumbdrive.
so ya i had to go all the way to IMM at cotton on where she works.

i had to wait till 6.30 before she starts her shift.

and suddenly bf called and said dat he finished werk and asked my whereabouts.
he told me that he's going back straight after werk
so i agreed on that.
futhermore my plan was actually to grab any snacks and head back home to break fast

den he called again,
and said he's coming over.

well..i didnt expect that frm u hun..:)
so we went to banquet and to secret receipe for desserts..
yummyyyyy.
too bad i was so bloated i cudnt finished everything

white chocalate cheescake

smarties treat.

thursday.
it was actually last min meet up wit shahidah n her bf.
before that rearrange the furniture at the living room.
indeeddd tiring giler nk mampos.hahaha

so rushed and met bf first at j.east and meet sha and bf at tong seng.

fisrt time double date la dkatekan..
hehee..

had tong seng.

they wanted to go bugis but bf refused
and we watched the fireworks instead.

coolnesss...

today.
well sum things happened at home.
at due to that i wasnt able to have my good rest of adequate sleep.
and i overslept for sahur.

bf had his wisdom tooth extracted.
poor u.
get well soon k..

remininsce

2010-08-24T16:24:00.004+08:00

its august 2010.

im supposed to be preparing for my dish later but i forgot dat mum helped me earlier with the cutting and stuffs.

so ringanla keje aku.

maybe i'll start heating up at ard 5 la k.

anw..

i was reading my past entries august 2007,2008 and 2009.

kenangan kape..

if u guys free go la read la..the entries..

kisah zaman silam ku itu yer..tu pon kalau korang takde keje la k..and if u wanna noe more bout me last time..

hahaa.

memories.ketawe sendiri..

them

2010-08-24T15:01:00.002+08:00

eversince i got my pay,

these two kids,my lil sis and lil bro keep asking me to buy stuffs for them.

"kak long nanti belikan matin kinder joy k kalau tak matin tak syg kakak." bleh eh gituk .

and den yest i sent him to sch,he hugged me and kiss me in the lips.

hahaha.sweet giler adk aku laki ni sorang.

and after sahur tadi when most kids jumped back to their bed,he stayed on with me to watched charmed and he took out his maths book.

"kak long,24-16 brapE?"hahah.

den i switched to the yog channel and he asked me again.

"kakak knape org yang lari tu pakai baju kurong?"

im like ape adk mane ade org pakai baju kurong utk lari.hahahahaha

kekek la..

smangat raye la dkatekan..

okla im gonna go prepare to cook nw,toodlesss

get well soon hun.

2010-08-24T14:04:00.005+08:00

its strange hw we got into a very stupid yet the smallest misunderstanding.

got so freaking mad at each other for another dumbest reasons..

and den we wud make up so quickly.

well..thats what love is all about.

to give and take.

poor huney been sick due to the very bad cough and sorethroat.get well soon k.

anw thanks for accompanying me go shopping yest. and to geylang on sun.enjoyed it tau eventhough we had a tiff at the veruy last min before going home.

im sorry k.i am not what u actually think i am.

loves fiqasri.:)

boredism

2010-08-21T23:02:00.003+08:00

today was a rather boring day for me.

bf's sick and ya as for me im stuck at home most of the time watching yog at channel 5 cos there's noting for me to watch.

so im planning to finish up my psychiatric project by today.hopefully.

so ya.

huney get well soon aites.love ya.

same old brand new me.

2010-08-21T00:51:00.002+08:00

just some randoms pics of me taken a few years baccck..haha..

any difference?

at city hall waiting for the train

inside the train..

at larkin johor..

my kitchen.

pathway along jeast to IMM.

today.

2010-08-21T00:34:00.004+08:00

well..well..its my 600th entry hahah!

didnt thought i would actually write up to more than 500 entries within 5 years..

maybe i shud target and hit 1000th entry.hahahhaaa.

depends la if i have the precious time to update.

so ya..

thanks to those who compliment my skin.

heee.love it..

today?

went pretty well..head to woodlands regional library,

met up bf after that.

yeahyeah..i was like very the slackish giler nak mampos.

track pants plus i p zone shirt and slippers.

hahaa..very lazy to wear nice nice clothes la..

ni sume ikot mood..kankan..

hehee.suddenly i bumped into sabrena and maz,punyela terkejot giler.

ni part aku malu sikit..

wen i saw them they wore like jeans and yeah nice tops,of cosla im like shitsss,they're my school frens and wen they saw me dressed up like dat,confirmla mesti drg ingatkan aku ni selekeh mcm minah nk g pasar..hahahhaaa

takpelaa..

.hahaha,gasakla ape org nak ckp.

so me and bf wasnt really in good terms,he's mad and im mad..both mad at each other for some stupid reasons,but we managed to overcome it for nw.

anw,,

we had a good talk on the phone reminiscing those times where he wud sent me back,lepak kat bawah blk story telling..hahaa.swee kapeer..

oklaa..

guess i shud proceed with my project nw.

the change

2010-08-18T01:59:00.004+08:00

so waddup yaw.ive changed my blogskinssss..

heee..wanted to actualy continue doing my project but nahhh..kindda boring u noe.so yeah i surf around finding new skins and i found this one.

and because he said im beautiful all the time..

i dont believe it..

huney,

,im just a normal gerl and pls la im nt that pretty compared to other gerls out there.

im fat for god's sake!

well...he keeps praising me every now n then i find it kindda iritating.haa.bleh gituk ek....

masok telinge kiri kuar telinge kanan,,

hehehe.sweet talker..

anw bf bought a pair of new specs for himself.

im so loving it....!!

makes u look younger tau!!serious...hehehehee

the look...of love....is in..your eyes......

cehdebahhh.

so ya notice my linkage,its lesser nw,cause when i click on their url,my frens,aquaintances,mates..wateva u called them,it states there,"Sorry, the blog you were looking for does not exist."so why bother keeping them

so yar..guess 'll be continuing my project tmr la..hee.nytesss.

he's back!!

2010-08-17T00:26:00.006+08:00

one of my favourite male singer comeback.

love the way he sings and the way he dance.....

what you waiting for by mizz nina feat COLBY O DONIS!!!!love yaaaa.

streesss

2010-08-17T00:01:00.003+08:00

im in the middle of doing my psychiatric project.sooo much for a 2 week holiday wen we're suppose to finish all the projects.

haaaizzz..

so ya.

it sucks,,but do i hav a freaking choice?

nah.

well..

ive been very sick the past few days and this cough dont seem to be nice to me.

been waking up in the middle of the night coughing my hearts out.

my god now i noe hw my bf felt wen he has his cough last time.

had mee soto for break fast.

and ya my appetite was nt that big due to the cough and ive been drinking plain water eversince.

btw i passed my cpr test.

alhamdulilah,

even though i flunked my first attempt for the theory test i managed to do well on the first attempt for practical on the one man cpr chest compression and rescuers breath.

yeaaasssssaa.i made it.

thanks to bf for supporting me all this while and he helped me alot in this project,finding pictures and other relevant stuffs.

thanks so much hun.

the update

2010-08-10T21:40:00.003+08:00

ive beeeennn very very busy these past few days that i dont hav time to update.

so sorry dearest blogger.

im gonna make it up to u k.

time really flies and tmr will be the first day of fasting.

tis is our second year fasting together as a couple.

cud still remember last year wen my loving bf wud pick me up either frm school or i met him after his camp during ns to go geylang bazaar.

and we had to buke along the road due to time constraint and we cudnt get any seat at the food courts nearby.

so tis year i hope history could repeat itself .

well,we may be a bit tight on budget wise but still we can meet after buke rite?

a simple 2 dols ananas meal is sufficient for the both of us

its okay hun if ure tired a fter a long day of training at home team academy,there's always weekend rite?

u noe im not like last time so its my duty to be that understanding gf for u .care and shower u with all my love.

untong tau u dpt i.hehehee

anw,

the past 5 days was a very gd one for us.

indeed,i treasure those times we spent together,

friday to lot1,

saturday to sheesha wit his ica frens

sunday to changi airport

monday to lot 1 again.

love u...

and ya school was rather stressfull

CPR phase test on friday.

and projects/

ouh ya i was appointed as a leader for my behaviour science project.

greeeeeaaat.

2010-07-29T21:36:00.003+08:00

well,i secrewed up big time for my psychiatric test.

wat i studied didnt even came out.

multiple choice qn was tough.

structured qn lagi tough giler.anyhow scribbled down the answers.

so yeah another project coming up.

behavioural science group project.haiyaa.psychiatric case study havent even complete,

double the werk load nw.

wah..stress stress stress...

and ya thanks hun for helping me alot.

lucks on ur ICA training.

way to go seargent to be.hehee

rainy thurs

2010-07-22T12:37:00.004+08:00

its a thurs and ya.
woke up otw to sch and its raining,
recahed skul and yeah i was caught under the rain.
the bus was packed too.

so today,
no s&w class.

best kape...
well nafa's over.so today no pe la kan.
hahhaa.

well..manage to escape yest nafa.
sape mau layan lari 2.4 sume.

sempot siak.
hehhee..

well im at nadia's hse now.
4 hrs of break.

dayang,nana n nad all sleeping infront of the tv.
im the only one awake typing this entry.

tgok dorang tdo aku pon mcm nak tdo jgak.
haha.

class resume later at 2.
damn lazy la plak yer.

still thinking wether i shud go sch or not tmr.
and ya i still havent start doin my psychiatric project.

ish..malas..malas..

n hopefully attachment pay is already in.
pokai beb.

the almost break up,

2010-07-22T12:26:00.005+08:00

it was at harbour front and we decided to settle it once and for all.
i was really frustrated wit him.

and ya he keep on saying sorry and yadiyadiya...

i wanna leave him and go wit dat new guy but den again.i still love my asri.

like they say love is blind.
it overcomes everytin.

but still i hav to be stern,and ya i walk away,

well i cud see in his eyes,the tears but u noe being the man,the ego in them..they wudnt want to show that they actually cried in front of us girls.

so ya.guesss its over.

well...not yet..he said he learnt his lesson and wudnt want to neglect me ever again.so ya better keep ur words,or else u noe the consequences later on..

nanti aru nak menyesal.
so better treat me right k huney.

it takes two hands to clap.

anw i wanna thank ruhainah for being there wen that guy whom i called boyfriend wudnt wanna see me cause of his selfishness. n thanks for consoling me,cheering me up. dowanna lose a dear feen like u k rin.

2010-07-12T19:20:00.005+08:00

woah woah..ape ni fiqah..

dont sad2 la.

maken bnyk pk,maken stress,maken stress,maken sempot dtg nanti.

well..i dono wat to type here.

hahaa.

ouh ya..best thing bout tues is that i start class at 12pm beb.

yayness.only 6 hrs of school.

starting to do my psychiatric project and im doin a case study on bipolar.

ala..mcm cite nora's wedding concept tu..

but that one involves her reflection which is the mirror la.

in actual life,it just involves our own self.

tis person will usually hav mood swings,can get so hyper at times and suddenly depression.like there's no meaning to life..so ya..if i were to type and continue.nampak gayene sampai besok pon tak habes..

so ya..its just for your info je.hhee.

haha.anw.

a close fren of mine advise me,not to think bout wateva that has been happenning.people do change.either for the good or the worse.he really cheered me up during those times that im down.

wat can i say,a friend in need is really a friend indeed.

i treasure the friendship we build all these years.

i probably jump down frm the building if i dont think straight.

sheesssh.

nauzubilah..da tak betol tu..hahaa

2010-07-12T19:11:00.002+08:00

Sayup hilang
Rahsiaku selamanya
Untuk aku terus menyintai dirimu

Aku pendam
Jadi khazanah semalam
biar masa menentukan segala..

Setelah aku mielihat mu berubah
Tutur laku tiada menjaga hati
Apa guna rahsia inikan ku persembahkan..
Ku cuba pertahankan perasaanku
Namun kau terus menduga
Kesabaran ini
Dipersenda..

Kiranya hujan turun membasahi diri mu
Itulah air mata dari hatiku
Menghitung hari-hari bersama
Namun aku dikecewa
Andainya ada bayu membelai wajahmu
Ia membawa kata pesan dariku
Aku kini dapat menerima perubahan dan kerinduan ini..:(

dedicated to u md asri.

2010-07-12T18:47:00.004+08:00

2nd week of school and its a very tiring one for me.

most of the days finish at 6.

hell ya.not to mention bout projects.

went to see a doctor for my asthma and i was shocked the bill costs me over 80 bucks.

tula mak ckp peg appoinment selalu tak pergi kan.last min sempot aru nak terkial2 carik obat.

boyfriend?

well.maybe its just me that always hav tis feeling..

i miss the times that we went out togeher.

sit down at pioneer,talking crap..

u drop nearby my blk..

and i cooked sumting nice for u.

well..its all dead and gone now.

on the other hand he's busy with his job and he wants to spend more time wit his family.

who am i to oblige that rite?

im just letting out my saddness here.

btw he's sick now.

get well soon oraites.

;(

2010-07-01T14:28:00.003+08:00

three more days and im so not looking forward to school.

haizzz..

well i must say that boyfie is slowly turning back to his oldself,

that is wat he keep repeating to me on the phone yest..

i really hope u mean it k.

anw it was mum's bdae yest.

happy birthday ibu.

hheehe.

went to vivo wit sis yest..

bought mum tis cotton on bag .

very nice.

met up with the bf as soon as sis head off to werk.

and we had dinner at fig&olive.

SCRUMTIOSLY nice.

hahha.

it was way different wen i ate wit nas last time.

hmm..

maybe the dish back then was not up to my taste bud.

so i want to thank bf for the veerryy yummy dinner.

well..

we went towrapped mum's gift.

and ya my skills of wrapping ,i must say boleh tahan la.

cause i remember back then working at watson i used to wrap so many boxes for customers especially during cgristmas..

well i miss those times weking there.

so ya..

secret receipe was our next stop.

mum loves cheesecake,

bought her 2 different slices.

worth it.

so ya head back home after that.

i can see that bf was really lethargic and not really himself wen he sent me home yest.

the sober face and ya can see that he's really tired frm werk.

im so sorry k if i was not so nice with you inside the train.

loveeee ya.

2010-06-29T15:17:00.002+08:00

so ya planned to go out wit the bf,

hang out at vivo.

cause its been so long since i last went there u noe.

and ya.

the view of sentosa and part of the universal studio can be seen frm where we are seated.

and then memories of those times i had wit the past guys i met suddenly struck me.

its the same exact location.

well..

its history nw.

and ya after the long cjhat we had,

decided to go and hav toast.

sumting different yeah.

and it was nice.

hahaa.

head to mcd after that.

craved for their french fries.

camane la aku tak gemok.

asyek mkn je..

hheee.

well.,wateva it is i still miss the old you.badly.

that friday

2010-06-27T17:36:00.003+08:00

i got to meet another one of asri's fren.

his name is farhan.

okla.

nice cool guy.

he reaally looked like my cousin zubair.

hahaha

miss that crazy guy.

hope to meet up again ya.

and sha if ure reading this, do join us too k.

rindu kau tau.hahahaa

anxiously waiting

2010-06-27T17:25:00.005+08:00

another weekend spent at home.

haiz.

life is getting bored day by day.

well..thank god there's my cuzin's birthday chalet held yest.

was fun la.

anw as im typing here,ive been waiting for his msg,his call..

but my waiting time was a disappointment.

ntahla.

i reALLy feel that u ar no longer the person i used to know.

i really do miss the old you.

the times where u wud called me upteen times making sure im ok.

the times u wud drop by under my block all the way frm ur home at tamp.

its like now,

the care and concern is not like last time.

isit me or isit just you.

or isit us?

haiz;(

muhammad asri othman i want the old you back.:(

2010-06-21T17:41:00.005+08:00

mymy, how long has it been .. me not updating tis blog of mine..

well im ssoo sorry for ditching you tis past few days..

its just that

firstly-mother took out the wire that connects the modem so its hard for me to get connection therefore i dont really hav much time to update except tweeting and fb-ing.

secondly-it was my dad's bdae on 11 june and we went to sakura to celebrate.

we step in and its like ok are we suppose to wait for the food to come to us or we come to the food.

mcm selenger seh.hahaaaz.

thirdly-its the sch hols and im reaallly stuck at home doing noting.

tell me wat am i suppose to do besides sleeping.eating and watching tv?

fourthly-hw to go out when im freaking broke and i hav to beg frm someone the cash needed.so pathetic i know.

fifthly-i forgot im also doing most of the housewerk at home.sheeesss.cooking,washing,sweeping..all the i-n-g thing

sixthly-im supposed to go wild2 wet with the cp mates but was called off last min.in the end i met up with my sec sch mate fizah to catch the movie killers awesomeeee.

and lastly i cudnt upload all the pics takenduring the days wen im out.

fcuk.

2010-06-13T20:13:00.001+08:00

so ya ive not been updating for quite sometime..

i wanna upload pics but then this blogger is giving me problems.

anw will update again tmr or the next day or the next day whnever i hav the time.:)

2010-06-13T20:10:00.001+08:00

so i changed the skin again.i noe its a bit of cartoonish but i like the contrast.so ok yeah.

2010-05-30T18:40:00.004+08:00

sunday 30/5/2010@ 6.43pm

went out wit huney to catch the movie shrek 3

hahaaa.

sweetssss

and i remembered he said after watching the show,

it made him appreciate me more.

btw the hall was at level 9,

its my first ever time to watch it there.

damn freeezinnggg~

so ya.

went to 313 after that.

the food at basement we had was a scrumptious want.

and the view at orchard central was a nice one.

basically it was a long time since we had such outing.

lovveeees.

2010-05-29T16:56:00.002+08:00

yess finally after so long hours of editing, ive changed the layout of my blog.

i so loving it.
but there's only one problem,
no date and time link bar.
sheeeshhhtssss.
why didnt i notice before using this template man.
ok moral of the story look closely before choosing.
hahaa.

so ya.
i hav no choice but to state the date and time at each entry.

wahlau so leceh man.
nvmd.

so it was vesak day yest,
went out with the family to hav a very big and fufilling breakfast which cost more than 40 bucks at KFC.
biaselah.
we hav a big family.bnyk mulut nak makan.

after that visit my grandma.
catch up with mak long.
and seeing my grandma's cute face really enlightens my day.

and ya.
huney,
seriously ive got nothing left to say.
haizzz.
might as well keep quiet and dont say anyting.

okla.
im tired areadi.
daaaa

ouh ya,today's date is29/5/10@ 5.07pm.

2010-05-27T01:05:00.002+08:00

wanna say a big THANK YOU for the late supper frm huney.wanted to enlarge the pic,but it still the same size,so yar.u shud see the nuggets the mum fried for me.

its yummy.....

so i wanna say a big THANK YOU again to his mum too sebab susah2 je uatkan ni semue utk saye,maceh cik:)

we sat under the moonlight facing the field at hougang. kindda romatic ya..hehee

btw my posting at imh will be over tmr.

gonna miss some of the patients there.

and ya,im getting sleepy areadi.

2010-05-23T19:21:00.002+08:00

i noe people might say that im weak or wat so ever but it still remain the same that i am who iam.

they can say wateva but i noe im strong deep down.

that why our relationship of one year 5 months still holding on just like a skyscraper reaching up to the clouds.

no matter wat type of typhoon or tsunami hits us,we fall..we get back together and start picking up the pieces that is broken.

anger might hit me,devastation..heartbroken..

but me being who i am will still hav the peservarance to kip holding on...

patience is the key...

dats why huney ure so damn lucky to hav a girlfren like me..

not to boast,but it is the fact..

love you :)

ps,the way u pujok me on the phone by asking me to look at the moon together was a sweet one.

you are so close yet so far.

2010-05-22T22:39:00.001+08:00

anw i waana wish my dearest fren

ROSE NAZIRAH a very happy birthday on the 21/05

i miss u la beb.

2010-05-22T22:16:00.003+08:00

my first week at imh posting is over.

u noe seriously i cant wait for tis attachment is over .

i cant take it anymore seeing her face.

like FUCK.

anw on friday me and boifie went to hav our lunch at botak jones.

their handmade tartar sauce my gosh was very yummy.

seriousl i dont even noe how to describe the taste.

its like so wonderful.

their spicy fries was fantastic.

hot and nice.

and i had fish and chips.

so yar.

the weekends boifie will be doin his bacinet.

yess.

boringg.

2010-05-18T23:42:00.002+08:00

u noe im really unhappy bout something..

i really hate this someone.

i dont noe wether i shud mention her name or wat.

but then again,i think that it mite be bit risky.

so ya.

tis person,

she's like the most unreasonable person i ever met.

my gosh.

and ya she's reaalllyy damn bias.

i dont wish to see her face.

but wat to do.

do i hav a choice?

haizz...just endure la kk..

btw,

i got back my medical posting grades,

ya i read my lecturer's comment and the mark she wrote down.

hell ya sucks.

2010-05-18T23:37:00.002+08:00

so nw my attachment will be at IMH for another two weeks..

hahahaa.

wen i recall the patients behaviour i cudnt stop laughing..

pardon me but serious,its like the way they do things..

but still i must say some of them are very smart though.

and fuck the journey man.

so far and tell me how am i supposed to catch the bus at 6am and then the train 5.36 am.

wen we need to report at 7am.in the morning shift.

damn tiring...

2010-05-18T23:25:00.003+08:00

u noe im still quite unhappy on my missing posts.

like wtf..its like half of my life fly out the window..

well..

nvmd lets start anew shall we?

so my 2 weeks of children posting is over.

wat an experience.

i like the nursery ward combine together with women;s ward.

get to feed those new born babies,bath them and carry them.

they were very small and fragile.

cute of course.

but the part i hate most wen they cry and cry.

its kindda annoying actually.

i got a chance to watch a baby being delivered.

wow.

my gosh.

very traumatised at first,

the baby head went out first and then the body and the hands and legs.

there were lots of blood..

i partnered with sulastri and the most scary part wen the doctor stitch back the vagina.

sulastri bite my shoulder and i pulled her shirt until it almost got torn.

sheessshh..

im like thinking twice wether to get pregnant or not.

the pushing,the pain..

but still i enjoyed the posting..

2010-05-08T22:29:00.001+08:00

ok nw im mad.

im supposed to hav 600 entry total.

and i only have 571.

where the other 29 post????

sial ah.

2010-05-08T22:21:00.002+08:00

heyhey.

i noe its been so long since i last wrote sumting here.

well...

finally one week in the paediatric ward is over.

i must admit its a bit boring coz as students we cant really cant get hands on to the skills available.

and i must tell u those children are such a cutie!!!!!!

not to mention the babies aged 4 mnths and above,

rase mcm nk cubit2 je pipi dorang.

hehehe.

its a bit saddening at a young age they were diagnosed with different diseases.

poor little cutie pies.

so ya.a week werking with nanyang poly students.

friendly and ya its a pleasure werking together with them..

if ure wondering are things between me and boifie doing well?

the answer is..

oklaaa.

hmm.

2010-04-29T11:10:00.001+08:00

went to my tooth filling just now at the poly.
damn excruciating the pain..

ouh ya btw thanks huney temankan i g dermatology clinic too yest regarding my toe.

the nurse sparay a form of liquid hydrogen on the affected area .

mind you its -196 degrees.
which means its freaking cold la seh..

and its damn painfullllllll!

haiz here pain there pain everywhere pain.

and money all gone.

just finish eating porridge and ya im gonna rest later.

:(

2010-04-26T19:47:00.002+08:00

another two more post and its goin to be my 600th entry.

wah..

that much hahhh..

cant believe that my blog has survive for 4 straight years..

cool or wat.

hahaha..

frm irristiblefiqx.blogspot.com to her-illusiones.blogspot..

since i was sec 5 i started blogging and then to ite clemanti,one year plus werking at watson and until now as a nursing student..

sheesshh,,the journey all this while.

anw i so cant wait to finish my last week here at this ward.

damn tiring man.

cant wait for mother and child posting.

get to hold those little cutie babies.

feed them,burp them and put them to sleep.

not forgeting those toddlers..

hehehehhee..

yaynesssssss.

2010-04-24T22:32:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to you.

happy birthday to you.

happy birthday to my dear

muhammad asri othman.

happy birthday to yoouuuuu!!!

happy2 dan mudahan berpanjangan umur k..

huney main hopscotch

2010-04-23T17:38:00.000+08:00

and btw tis was videoed by me .

hahaha.cute

2010-04-23T17:24:00.003+08:00

helllooo my dearrrrrest.

its beeeeenn so long since im on a hiatus.

hahaha.

wah..

beeennn very very busy and tiring.

attachment for two weeks now.

haiz..

8 hours of standing times 5 days per week.

which make it a total number of 40 hrs.

tell me the leg felt like breaking apart.

backaches.

heartaches.

all types of aches.

boifie was also busy with his pre ORD training.

so ya didnt get to spend the time together.

hmm..

ya..

the skills.

tell me about it.

nevermind another 7 weeks to endure.holding on strong aites.

2010-04-08T11:30:00.002+08:00

met boifie at yew tee.
well.
he said he had no money left ..
so i decided to brought his some food frm home.
keciankan da lapar.

so head to imm.
well.
buy some stuffs there.
and as usual boifie tak abes2 suroh masok kedai cotton on.
almost all shopping centres that we hav been too that has the shop cotton on he wud pulled me and say
"eh u!!!cotton on,jom masokk!get u some new tops and yadiyadiiya...."

sumtimes i feel that he's the galfren and im the boifren.
cos usually the galfrens will get all excited if they see those shops that sells nice dresses and shirts all that.
but for me da tebalek.

same if he sees nice shoes and man shirts like topman,he wud said
"u jom masok kejap!!nk tgok ah.lawa kan u?!"
hahhaa..haiz..

so ya went to watsons and i met my ex colleague there,
kak safirah.
gosh i missed those times we werk together for the past 1 year plus at jurong west.

hahaha..
so after that.
took 99 back home.
and inside the bus,
as usual boifie with his childish attitude.
da tak btol kan u.
hahahah.

:)

2010-04-05T09:55:00.002+08:00

"congratulations,i am pleased to inform you that u have been rewarded the ITE & CCC bursary award.........."

alhamdulilah...

yesaa..thank god i really tot i didnt get it.

i receive another letter.

the letter only stated my name fiqah,no full name.

"a big thank you for your love and support for monsoon group saloons....."

well its their hair treatment promotion phamplet.gosh its been so long since i last went there.

so once i got the money.i am so goin there!!

get all pampered up.

btw to my dear huneykuz embek, the post u type in ur blog really sweet..it really shows that how boyfriend shud love their galfrens.

and ure damn lucky to hav me tau.or else you cud hav been dumped.!

2010-04-04T10:25:00.000+08:00

still hurt me deep down.

2010-04-03T11:59:00.002+08:00

did it happen during the first kiss?
cause its hurting to let me go..
maybe cause we spend so much time and i noe dat its no more..

my mind is gone..
im spinning around..
and deep inside my tears are drowned..

im losing grip..
wats happening?
astrayed from love..
tis is how i feel..

this time is different
unlike the beggining..
im the victim and it cut me just like a knife.

now im in this condition and i got the symtoms..
of a gerl wit a broken heart..
and no matter wat u will nvr see me cry..

2010-04-01T15:12:00.005+08:00

10 things that happened the past few weeks.
1)i noe i kindda left my bloggie here un-updated.so sorry.
well..basically,i got noting to write.life still remain the same.
2)wake up ..clean hse,eat..sleep again.. watch tv,cook sumting before mother start to nag.,watch tv again..sleep..and it goes on and on..
3)my results?yeah,sucks.was hoping to get an A,but i get B for bio.not to mention GPA.

4)been crying the past few days,the heart feel like tearing apart.

5)as usual broke as ever with no cash,okla a few dollars inside my wallet.not up to 10 bucks ok.i noe its pathetic.

6)been sleeping late,and due to that unwelcome headache hits the brain.

7)ouh ya slept late mostly due to watching the series flashforward.guess im hooked to it.

8)keep craving to eat nice yummy food,which i nvr get to taste my entire life.

9)as mention earlier,i cried due to the usual argument BUT STILL,i love my embek k.who is my boyfriend of coz.benci tetap sayang.

10)i miss my galfrenssssssssss!!

anw,the pics taken below was like a year ago at marrina barrage. and rose just uploaded it at fb .thx ek.haha

frens since sec sch.

boifie said i looked decent.hahhahahaaa

2010-03-23T16:20:00.001+08:00

BACK FRM THE TRIP,
finally smelled the air of jb,kindda polluted abit but hey,
still it was an unforgetable trip wit the family.

it was thistle hotel that we stayed in.
wahhhh..the room was like oh my goshhh..
serious if uve got the cash,
u guys shud go and spend the nite there.

flat screen tv with bath tub included in the toilet..
damnnnnnnnn.....

during nite time,we went to eat at this place at pandan city,
the moment we settled down,menus started to come ...
hahahaha.da mcm kat simpang bedok la..

well..
there were varities of food to eat.
yummmmmmmyyyyyyyy..

and then there's like a bazar nearby,
so kite pon jln2,,
back to the hotel ard 11.

the next day,
after we check out,we went to this shopping called city square.
some sort like jurong point or those neighbourhood malls in spore.

the best thing i like bout jb,all the food there halal beb,
so we can eat wateva we want without any worries.

den there's this little space just like u see in bugis village inside the shopping mall.

wah..
me 2nd sis matin and fatin sempat main arcade.
teringat time main basketball dgn boifie at arcade too.
kite champion kan u?heheee ..

well..yadiyadiya..
reached spore ard 6.

more pictures availabe at my facebook.
go see ok.

heee

2010-03-19T14:16:00.004+08:00

Scorpio is the astrology sign of extremes and intensity.
Scorpios are very deep, intense people,
there is always more then meets the eye.
They present a cool, detached and unemotional air to the world
yet lying underneath is tremendous power, extreme strength,
intense passion and a strong will and a persistent drive.

Scorpios have a very penetrative mind,
do not be surprised if they ask questions,
they are trying to delve deeper and
figure things out and survey the situation.
They always want to know why, where and any other possible detail
they can possibly know.

Scorpio's are very weary of the games that other people try to play
and they are very aware of it.
Scorpios tend to dominate and control anyone that lets them,
or anyone that they find weak.

The person that a Scorpio respects and holds close to them is treated
with amazing kindness, loyalty and generosity.
On the outside, a Scorpio has great secretiveness and mystery.
This magnetically draws people to them.
They are known to be controlling and too ambitious but only because
they need control for this makes them feel safe...

and the rest remain unwritten..

courtesy of myraismail.blogspot.com<>

hmm...most of it kindda true actuali..
haa

2010-03-19T14:10:00.003+08:00

wh0 would want to wake up early in the morning with a few hrs of sleep during tis sch hols?.
its me of course..hahaha

as early as 5,the time where i usually wud woke up and get ready to go sch.
but this time decided to accompany boifie for his interview at old police academy.
started the day for some mcd bfast at kallang.
hotcakes for him and big breakfast for me..

yummm...

heee.jgn jeles,boifie i blanje tau.

after that proceed to thomson rd where the old academy police is
and suddenly rain started to pour slowly,drizzled..ouh ya before that
for lunch had nasi leamk power at novena,so ya tapao and eat at the canteen .

so police academy canteen,not bad..its air conditioned..
well basically the whole building there abit old la.duhh..hahahaa.
obviously..

so ya,followed boifie to tis room where there were other guys and girls waiting at the same time,
was sitting down suddenly,
officer called "muhammad asri"
the officer told him sumting and den boifie approache me and said that i need to wait outside..
thanks ekkkk..
was raining and i had to wait for him to finish the interview.

it continued to rain so we had no choice but to use my jacket to cover our heads as we walked all the way back to the bus stop.
no umbrealla,jacket pon jad la ek..
and it was kindda romantic sia..
hehehe

noticed sumting?
hehehee.so as soon as we arrived at the bus stop,he start to take out his digi cam and took snaps..
irritating but well,im used to it...

eksyen malu ke,hahaa

tak abes2..

btw i received a call frm my CP tchr.
hmm..she said im still grp 4..

hope it stays that way,i dont want to change grp...!!plz plz plz!!

anw,hun,
take one step at atime,im sure u will be a better person for u and for us..

takmu noti2 bile i kat msia nanti k..

luuuuvvv u!

2010-03-16T14:59:00.000+08:00

second week of hols,yeah notin much to do at home,the usual routine cleaning cooking washing...
haiz nvrending..

so ya the above pics is the pics of us siblings playing monopoly.
yeah total boredism.

2010-03-15T14:45:00.001+08:00

dear you,weve been together for the past 15 months now,
and i must say its a journey full of enjoyment,tears and so much more.

happy monthsary huney.
one year 3 months and counting.

2010-03-15T14:30:00.002+08:00

well,i mentined earlier that the past weekend wud be a bored one for me..
but it wasnt!
hahahaha.
boifie decided not to go to his kendarat,
and ya,
we went to my class bbq instead.

well..
it was overall okla..
the food was nice.

and ya,had fun..
before that had lunch at hajah mainumah restaurant,
wah..
the tahu telor there verryy the yummy,
and t only cost lest than 13 bucks.
heeeeeee.

so below are the pics.

blueekksss

boifie tak abes2 ngan guitar.haaa.sweet kape,

so ya thats us,most of them didnt turn out though.

me,nana,nadi dayang and feedah.

2010-03-12T21:12:00.002+08:00

another boring day,
walk in and out frm my room,lay down flat on my bed,switched the tv..
still freaking bored.
btw,

im like so addicted to tis new song.
its called di antara cinta dan ego.
music video for the series cinta ixora @ suria.
like cmon im so not into listening malay songs but this one,
really caught my ears.heee

enjoy.

2010-03-11T12:20:00.005+08:00

indeed.

2010-03-11T01:54:00.003+08:00

seriously,this tootache plus the ulcer is such a pain in the arse.
haiz..

tell me when was the last time i slept late..
haiz.
okla since i cant sleep,let me just type sumyting here.

ahhaa.
so sad that actuali im being transfered out frm my attachment group to another grp.
haiz.......

imagine werking with all these new people.
haiz.but nvmd.
i can always make frens rite.

hee.

hmm.
holidays?
the time to finally catch up wit my beloved frens as promised.
i noe i noe.
ive been very very busy.

haiz.
eh okla dono wat else to type areadi.
daa people.

2010-03-11T00:47:00.001+08:00

i am sooo boreeddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.
i cant sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

and this ulcer is killing meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2010-03-10T10:19:00.004+08:00

just so you noe.
that gals are fragile,just like a piece of broken glass
some things that can make them so upset,till they broke down and cry,
i was pushed aside again tis time,
and i hate that feeling.

just so u noe,
no one is perfect in tis world,
dats wen i voiced out,
but i was accused of nagging,
guess i should hav kept quiet and not say anyting.

just so u noe,
i noe i can be abit rude and angry.
i appologised,
but guess u will nvr realise.
sometimes u dont treat me right.
i wont reacted tis way,if only u just ..

just so u noe,
i love you,
wud be crazy if i lose you.

2010-03-07T09:06:00.004+08:00

guess wat?
met up wit the boifie yest.
and we called it the unhealthy day.
noe why?

coz lunch we had kfc and dinner burger king.
sheeeshhhh.
mcmane la aku tak maken gemokss.

so ya he accompanied me revising throughout the times we were togeher.
haiz.
and im lacking sleep.

anw.
looks like next following weekend will be a boring one for me.

hopefully the plan to go jb wit sis n her bf will happen.tu pon klau jad yer

if not,haizzzzz.

nvmd.

any people out there wanna watch alice in wonderland with me?
im entitle for the m1 sunday tickets.
which mean buy one get the next tix free la.

text me k.

:(

2010-03-04T20:01:00.003+08:00

so yay,its the last day of sch today before the exam starts next week.
tension on the rise.
revision the whole day today.

wah.
hopefully i my gpa can increase a bit.
cos mother has been nagging asking me to go poly.
tu pon klau boleh ke bu.
so ya. ama bought her camera and we were like camwhore ing.
mcm2.

so ya.exam and then holidays. yay.

mcm2 posing ade.

inside the lab

JR0901G.
best behaviour award given for geronoly lesson.

and yap.
cant wait for attachment
mother and child posting.
bleh mandikan baby tau.
heee

2010-03-03T17:58:00.004+08:00

exam coming in a few more days.
and i still have not covered the revision for most of the topics for bio and PCA.

wah so stress areadi.
and ya,
still not sure wether i can make it to peishan's bdae party tis sat.
i miss u gerls la!

FAR2 still remain in my mind ok.

2010-03-03T17:40:00.008+08:00

spent the last weekend with boifie,
and u noe its a coincidence both of us wear the same colour shirt.
hahaha.
blue blue,
i love youuu!
heheeee

like finally we went to al ameen for our lunch at b.timah.
wellllll..
the food i ordered there was not really up to my taste bud
its like..

hmm..
not nice la.
too salty.

but boifie chicken chop taste better.
eh u how come u mkn sume sdap ek?
hahaha.

still i prefer al azhar just a few walk away.
so rite after that we head to b.panjang.

just walk2
talk2.

notin much.
cos seriously we cracked our heads thinking of places to go.
like wat he said.singapore so the small lahx.

the following sunday,
went to bugis.
initially wanted to go tong seng and as usual grabbed sumting for an early lunch.
sheesh its closed.

den his fren called.
firdaus frm greenview.
he wanted to meet us.
so okla boifie said ok to that.

met up at mr teh tarik at geylang there.
my gosh the weather was scorching hot.
sweet boifie use the little fan i bought and fan it on me.

den he said u kan my princess,i kipaskan u k.
hahahahahah!

so fir buy us drinks and ya .we ate and ate
took bus 30 after that and went home.

so yeap.indeed a fun weekend even though its bored wit no place to go.

2010-02-26T21:51:00.003+08:00

tis fucking headache is killing me.
and ya the i/v retest.
sheesh i dont even noe wats wrong wit me.

haiz.

isit me or isit just the way its meant to be.?
tell me why aint nothing but a ~~heartache~~
tell me why aint nothing but a mistake.

tell me why?