now:joyness and sadness.. the joyness is that i got my pay..YAHOO! can finally go do sumting bout tiz hair of mine.. give it a new look or sumtin.. muahahahahkz.. blanje the bf cause he already blanje me.. ehhehe.. hmm.. the sadness is i cant go higher nitec.. haiz.. i dont noe.. mum keep pestering me to take tiz private diploma in pendidikan islam.. im like.. to giv it a shot or not.. please give me time to tink bout tiz. working 5 to 10 later... slamatzz
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yessa.. finally my working hours are so flexible now.. haha.. of coursela..am only a part timer there wat.. why shud i werk like a full timer there.. every day.. either.. 2 to 10.. or 830 to 5.. hahahah.. will start at 5 till 10 tmr.. and same goes for the next day..and the next day.. hahahaa..now i can have freedom.. its been four months werking here.. and can say that me and the supervisor ar at good terms.. cause our age gap is not that far.. she's 23 and im 19 turning 20.. and i cant believe i shared some of my personal probs to her.. and okla she's a gd advisor.. bout mat m.. i think i really want to forget him.. i noe he's gd looking and all dat.. but his attitude..is like shit. haha.. kla ek..enough of him.. so the guys picked me up frm werk just now.. and i tink i shudnt disappoint my bf just because of dat mat m thingy.. yess..i must be strong.. hahaha.. and tmr din will treat me swensens!! been so long since i last saw him.. fyi.. din is my 2nd sis's fren..
seriously i dont noe wats wrong wit me.. im happy wit my new bf but at the same time im not.. i dont noe.. i mean i love my new bf but.. im so weak.. the more i tried to forget mat m the more he stays in my mind... pls help me.. haiz.. i know that my new bf is there for me but half of me is still wit my x please ppl.. i need ur advice.. period.
first things first... me and dat malaysian guy.. IS SO OVER.. SUCH HEARTBREAKING,DEVASTATING,DISAPPOINTING ATTITUDE.. but to think it again..I THINK I MADE THE RIGT MOVE BY IGNORING HIM.. all this while my insticts were right..dat day he told me he went geylang at night to buy some stuff.. night time?? hello?? u think im stupid or wat.. no one goes to geylang late at nite unless they have one thing in their mind.. SEX.. FUCK man.. ni pon nasib aisha blang aku sak..klau tak..ill never noe.. and im lucky dat im surrounded by frens who so called pyscho me to forget that MOTHERFUCKING ASSHOLE.. and thank god i did not fall into his trap.. well..enough of that bastard.. im now happy with this someone who shower me wit his love.. can say we are so called a couple now.. hehehhee...hmm.. went to marina yest with him... watched superhero movie.. haha..a lame movie but okla it mades me forget bout all the stresseDNEss..and yah,we laughed out loud.. can say im happy with him... but i dont noe.. g
went to meet the guys just now.. was supposed to meet the bf.. but nah.. after all the advice frm my dearest frenz,i felt that im wasting my time.. and i heard frm my fren who worked together wit him mentioned that he is just using me. omg.. typical malaysian.. haiz.. they only want one ting.. fuck man.. one tings for sure u will never get it frm me asshole.. but then again... the more i tried to forget him, the more i keep tinking of him.. and somemore he's always busy with his werk.. his job is so important than the gf.. argh..wateva arhg..i dont wanna tink bout him.. so we went swimming.. me,lat,qyd,boi and don..plus malek..ahem.. it was fun... hahahahahhahaha.. best sehx.. den after that we went je.. that malek ar said that there's a bowling alley there.. dgr2 ade.. so we end up playing snooker instead.. the guys played.. me and qyd went to find food.. haha.. end up buying burgr ramly.. yadidadadida... went to watch movie. hotti and notti... okla nice show. and promotion ch
haiz.. i dont know wat my feelings ar now.. it seemed that there is thiz third party who i shud say was influencing me bout my relationship wit my bf.. and wateva dat third party said was like true.. haiz.. i dunnoe..i mean i love my bf.. but.. he's so buzyyyy.. we hardly sit down and talked.. and he kept asking wether he can have dat ting.. seriously NO! argh... wateva ar.. i don wanna stressed myself out tinking bout all tiz problematic stuff.. yadidyayadiya.. hmm.. 2nd sis lost her hp.. poor she.. tula.. next time dont put ur handphone anywhere.. wat the use of having a pocket on ur skirt.. and thx ar.. afternoon shift all the way..............
its my off day today.. did full shift yest.. damn tired.... and guess who went to my shop? it was qyd..! hahaha.. mish u lots la beb.. and seriously u look so ayu without any make up or eyeliner on.. btol..tak bedek.. hahaha... so i did all the spring cleaning in the shop to prepare for the stock take tiz thurs.. so as i was buzy cleaning all the shelving and arranging all the products,i saw two gals standing outside the shop staring at me.. hahaha..it was shantiy and natasha la..my sec sch mates.. i was shocked and speechless when i saw them..cause its been so long since we last saw each other.. but we did not talked much la..hahaha.. so i will be in the afternoon shift all the way till end of the month.. and i still dont noe wether i shud change to permanent full time there.. hmmz.. did noting today except to clean my ever messy room.. and also sleep.. as i was sleeping soundly,boi called saying dat hes under my block.. im like..huh..okok..aku turon.. and kilat was wit him too la se
I got a lot to say to you Yeah, I got a lot to say, I noticed your eyes are always glued to me Keepin' `em here and it makes no sense at all They taped over your mouth Scribbled out the truth with their lies You little spies They taped over your mouth Scribbled out the truth with their lies You little spies Crush Crush Crush Crush Crush 1-2-3-4 Nothing compares to A quiet evening alone Just the one, two I was just counting on That never happened I guess I'm dreamin' again Let's be more than this If you wanna play it like a game Well, come on, come on, lets play Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending Than have to forget you for one whole minute ... again.. crush..crush..crush by paramore
i just got back frm marina square.. helping out the refit/renovation at watsons outlet there.. and im so fucking tired now.. and when i reached there at 10pm,i was like ok..im the only malay girl.. wat the?? four chinese guys..ahem can say they were quite hot la..hehe haiz..for the first few hours i felt lonely..felt like im just wasting my time there knowing that during that hour i would have gone to bed..sleeping soundly like a baby.. but im there werking in the wee hours of the morning.. rearrange all the products in the shelving.. putting all the shelving onto the notches..can say its quite tough cause its a man job..DUUH! den this chinese guy came out from nowhere..offered his help.. heheee..jus as i needed.. so we talked and from his slang i can tell hes frm the mainland china.. haha.. so i tried to break the ice with the other guys.. and they were quite friendly too.. all of them from different outlet helping the refit.. so we joked ard.. but most of the time i was concentrating
so ive made a bit of ammendments to my blog here like finally.. and now.. IM STUCK.. seriously ive got nowhere to go.. higher nitec cant make it.. haiz..i dont noe.. mum still wants me to go school.. i still want to go school.. keep studying.. and also the fares.. much cheaper.. HELP!i need help.. and dat manager of mine.. wants me to stay permanent full staff there at watsons so that he can promote me to acting supervisor.. SUPERVISOR? omg.. i dont noe.. and im like tired.. afternoon shift all the way.. mum jus nagged at me to take private diploma.. i dont noe.. STRESSED..STRESSED..STRESSED!
kk..so i just talked on the phone with david.. thx alot david for the encouragement.. i dont noe wats my plan nw.. thinking and thinking and thinking.. so i woke up feeling so lerthagic.. qyd called asking wat time meeting.. bla..bla..bla.. met her and her new fren.. wat his name ar..lupe ar.. and sorry if i cudnt join u guys to go to the beach.. and these few days i keep forgeting things like where i put all my stuff all that.. haizzz... so i went to my appointment at nuh.. so far so good.. lets just hope my asthma is well controlled.. and i got a flu vacination to like also prevent my asthma frm coming back.. OUCH!the needle went through in my skin..its like so painful man..even rite now as im typing,my left arm hurt so much.. FINALLY! i opened up an account for my monthly saving which will be deducted frm my salary.. thx nas for becoming my financial advisor.. so rite now i dont have to worry for my future needs.. theres like alot for me to say here but my 3rd sis need to use the c